The Best

I'll have to say tat this year's burfday and X'mas were the best and the best of all the other years...i really love Christmas, its all about sharing, caring and giving. I hope everyone will understand the true meaning of X'mas and not taking it as an opportunity to grab presents and candies...its not just about all tat. We have to learn how to appreciate the ppl around us all the time, we just tend to forget and take advantage over them and tell them how we feel, how much we love them...b'coz we'll never know how far can we or them live. Life is short if we wasted it but if we live to the fullest of life, life is a long beautiful journey. Life will only be meaningful and precious if we 're with our loved ones. My birthday was terrific, we went for Japanese buffet(i puked for eating too much ice-cream =P), shop like heaven's joy, received the 1st present from my bro without asking for it(he's so sweet), ate so much the ball-thingy which my grandma cooked(so deliciously delicious) and the best part, received so many wishes and presents from YOU!!! Thank you...i really appreciate all the love tat u've sent me. I just wish tat i could have a simpler burfday next year. Just a warm dinner and cake at home will be more than enough. Mum, dad, you dun have to spend so much for me, u've done ur job really really well. Now its time for us to work and take care of u. I'm very very sorry for always making u angry and disappointed but u've got to understand my thinking. I'm sorry and thank you very much!!!

To Every One

Excited

Yeah!!! My birthday's tomorrow, Christmas's the next day!!! The year is ending and another new year is arriving...I love it but thinking of going back to school...everything changes...I dun wanna go back there!!!!!! Time flies...Seriously, am I supposed to make 1 wish or 2 wishes??? Good God...i dont know wat to say anymore...Alritey, lets end it here...A New Year Is New.

A Brand New Month

Its December!!! Yay!!! Christmas's getting closer and nearer to us. Hahaha...alritey, my mum asked me wat i've done the past whole month...Guess wat's my answer? Mapling, TV, sleeping, shopping, eating, and more sleeping. =) Its really great...my bro and I can be sitting in front of the computer for 14 hours!!! It's really extremely crazy. Okay, next problem...friendship prob...i always has difficulty in this, i feel tat she is trying to control my life, she wans to be in my life, she wans to know everything about me. She thinks tat i nid sumone in my life to rely on and she wans to be tat person? She's just tooooo much! You dun call ur fren in the midnite and question her whether she's ok or not like ur're her husband or bodyguard!!! Yes, i felt touched and love her for wat she's doing but PLEASE DUN GO OVER THE BORDER!!! I hate to control ppl and hate to be controlled...Maybe its b'coz of the holidays...she feels alone, bored and distressed. I tried to understand but every time u open ur mouth, i just can't take it anymore, you r making me so impatient tat i almost hate u. I'm very sorry tat i'm like this and hopefully u can understand. SPM's over! Yahoo for the Form 5. My bro, WOW, rite after his last paper, he is seen flying everywhere!!! He's flying to the whole world this holidays...hahaha...free finally...School's reopening in one month...I Hate School!!!

Distress

Hey dudettes...holiday seriously seriously sux!!! Terribly boring and a waste of time...mapling whole day...seriously not cool at all...Haih...wat to do???!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!The Bukit Tinggi Jusco opening this Saturday~~~Add on another lepaking spot for me to hang out =P Defintely gonna go check it out...Ppl asked me if i'm sad or moody or troubled...i answered them dun judge a book by its cover. They always interpret things by their own way of thinking and make up lots lots of stories...i wonder if they won't get bored or sick gossiping and intruding ppl's lives. I have lots of secrets...and i have never ever shared it with anyone, not even my closest fren nor family, only a lil' to my younger bro...u'll might think tat i dun trust u or dun really take u as my frens...No, tats not true. I always LOVE all of u, even those who dun love me anymore. I always wan to forget my pasts, forget everything tat's hurtful, let the pasts be the pasts. I know I often try to escape from some of ur questions...tats b'cuz i know i will only be sad talking about it and the main point, I dun wan u all to think that i'm a sad pitiful person. Pls understand...i only have trust in one person, and He's God. Another thing, i'm kinda an emo person, i listen to melancholy songs, and tat is all b'cuz i'm trying to understand all kinds of frustations, depressions, sadness, irritations, anger, vengeance......tat many teenagers around the world today facing with at such a tender age...There's not many ppl who knows wat HAPPINESS really feels like nowadays...All of them are just so materialistic and immature. Life to them is just money, blings blings, handphones, music, frens, family, cars, jobs, clothes...We can have all tat but without TRUE LOVE, we cannot even have ourself. Alritey, to all SPM seaters out there, do wat u have to do and always always give ur best in everything. Its very important, make sure u have no regrets in watever u do...cause tat feeling is not sweet at all...Hahaha =) My Life's ''Great'', Wat Bout Urs?

Beeeeeeeeee

Oh ya...forgot to say about the movie we watched yesterday...BEE MOVIE!!! Not really hillarious but really made me realize that every tiny changes make a big difference...so everyone out there...dun be afraid to make a change b'coz u dun know wat u can do with ur smallest effort...My younger bro was so excited...so i told him the whole Bee Movie....hahaha...he got even more excited and wanna watch it so terribly...brothers.......I love all my brothers...And yea...yesterday i made a new fren too...his name is Benedict Wong Shao Wei...i made up the spelling myself =) Standard 2 this year, loves badminton, basketball and football, dun get boring easily, has a mature sharp mind and thinking, cute handsome boy.....so young so innocent...when i was in Standard 2, i'm already learning whats life, the pain and beauty of life, how to live life....All of these is b'coz of my brothers...they taught me all these...Thank you...My thinking growth really happened too fast...Everything happens for a reason....Praise The Lord!!! Amen...

Disaster AGAIN!!!

2nd outing for the 2 fella...and guess wat...they spoilt it AGAIN!!! This time was Mandy's hardwork...she's still hoping and giving Sab another chance...she hopes that u will realize and change for the better...but HELL YEAH!!! You wasted ur bloody last chance AGAIN!!! Last time was me giving u the chance, yesterday was Mandy's...and there will never ever be a next time already...not only u crashed her final hope on u but u also spoilt her 1st date with the person she loved for so many years and their 1st meeting after a year plus...U definitely has no heart, no feelings, no respect for others and the most importantly...NO BRAIN...but u have THE BIGGEST ASS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WOLRD...useless brat who spoilt my life...I can't believe it that after the outing...u still can laugh and act like ntg happened, u assumed everything was fine and u're not even feeling a lil' guilty of wat u've done and the worst thing is...u blame all of us for interrupting ur problems...LOL...Seriously, the guys group...USELESS...this is the 2nd outing...u'll should be taking charge of everything...not the girls la dudes...Don't u'll feel embarrassed...But anyway, after the whole irritating thing...Mandy and I went to Secret Recipe to release some stress...then i went shopping with my family!!! =D We shopped for 4 hours non-stop...and my legs hurt terribly!!! Hahaha...so happy although tired...then went for supper with grandma...reached home around 12am...can't sleep...thinking of my day...i think i lied on the bed for 2 1/2 hours thinking...Wow...Yeah...i did something last night...My bro having SPM...so i did sumthing tat i never tot i would do...Hehehe...Wat to do...A sister's love...=P Okie...last words...The World Has Turned Upside Down.

Boringness!!!

Oh Lord, holidays can be really suffering. Omg...yesterday report card day, i was the last to go back!!!The last...Dad, watcha thinking? How can u forgot? I reminded u a million times...damn disappointed...Anyway, i guessed he was happy with my greds. Hopefully he saw my hardwork...Plannings for the holidays...watch all horror movies, buck up volleyball skills...like shyt d, go swimming, sewing, folding stars, baking and definitely studying...If only i have someone to do all these things with...my bro? =D Tuition...dunno why, every time on the way going tuition, when gonna reach edi...the heart sure go mad and pump extremely fast...I told my mum i got heart problem...she says i every day sleep late, skip meals, watch too much tv, bla bla bla...Some maybe true la...look at the time now....Haih.....Wat i'm gonna do during the holidays??? Yeah, sleepovers...if only my mum allows...no freedom at all...So not fair. My bro got to go so many school trips and trips with his frens but me, wanna go out for a day also so difficult. Tats b'coz i'm a girl...=.= Girl...so wat i'm a girl, a girl can't do things tat boys can? Girls can't join community service activities? Girls can't be active in sports? Wth...why are ppl's thinking like tat...terrible...Okay, just now in tuition...i dun know wats wrong with me or the teacher...but i just feel tat i am always the teachers' target...no matter which teacher...school or tuition or watever..........Alrite, time to say BB?......Look At The Time!!!

Blur???

November already...so fast...exam results...hahaha...quite bad...worse than mid-term, but managed to get all As and a B for Seni...not bad but still gotta work harder...seriously, i really studied freaking damn hard for this exam...especially SEJARAH and GEO..but why still can't achieve wat i wan!!!!!PMR is so damn near already...hopefully dun be in the same class as that girl...or famously called B****...suffering like hell...tomorrow prefect's party...very excited and nervous...so can't sleep...hahaha...Deepavali coming.....Christmas!!!!!!!!!Can't wait for it...Turkey!!!Presents!!!Candies!!!I wish there's SNOW.......Actually, wat she said is right...this world is not fair at all...AT ALL....i prefer to suffer in other country with other races rather than in this country that discriminates their own citizens.....Boys Really SUX...watever they do or say never ever go thru their brains...sumtimes, i wonder whether they have one anot...they just...SUX...okay...maybe certain boys...but mostly all are the same...The Adam's Genes...

A New Life Again

Hahahha...the holiday...hahaha...i wasted it...physically but mentally...i used it up fully...i finally got over it and i'm okay now...Wonderful...the feeling of freedom, peacefulness and satisfaction...All this while, i tot i can't achieve all that alone...but now i achieve them being alone...Last Sunday, my mum asked me about LIFE...i was shocked...she said LIFE is a period of time given by God for us to play around on earth...and He will see whether we know how to use our time and whether we know Him better or Satan by looking at what we do...That answer really made me realise that in this world...nothing is forever, everything will be gone one day and we will be hurt...so why do we want to have it at the first place when we already know its gonna be gone one day.....We seriously need to think deeply before we do something...if that is too difficult...just think...If i am God, what will i do? Its so simple...yet complicated...We should look at life with a satisfied heart and not with a hungry mind...tat way, we control life and not life destroy us....My Life Is So Peaceful Now!!!

Broken

Damn...i wish no one read my blog...Ok...received the news on Monday, in an unexpected way...seriously dunno wat to say or feel...i was happy as first because i'm finally free...free to do anything i want...but later i feel sad,disappointed and manies more...Seriously, if tat is wat you want, i would definitely support you...b'coz i wan you to be happy and cared and loved...and i know u dun feel like tat from me...i'm really sorry...i really care,love,wan to make u happy...i do...but i just dun know how to show and express it...especially in words...i know sumtimes we chat...i suddenly stop talking, dun give u a satisfactory answers or replies, sounds like i dun care about ur feelings anymore...i know wat i've done...but i wan u to know tat i really SUX in this...i dun know how to tell u wat i feel and how to comfort u...And i had seriously tried to talk to u so many times in tuition...i dunno y...i'm scared...i am just so stupid...i'm very very sorry...but y do u not tell me about ur feelings...let me know wat u think...Ok...maybe u think tat i will not care or i just dun know u and i can't help anything...i know its too late to fix things back...i just wan to know the truth...did u ever love me before or u're just using me all this time to get wat u wan...pls...tell me the truth...

Peekaabooo

Hahahahaha...exam finish!!!!!!=.= Next week still got...after the damn Raya also got...Haih.........Yeah!!!!!!!!! My English teacher is back!!!! She's very fine but can't be as active as last time d...She still recognise me!!!! Yay!!!!Hahahaha....Form 3 d...so fast....Time....pls go slower...Hmmm...why do every teacher on this earth seems to have problems with me? So manies other ppl everywhere...MANIES=)...new word...why must call me? Why must u'll always make me recognised by so many other strangers? NVM.....The Latest Word Stucked In My Brain--> BOYS IN SKIRTS Yea....i'm sure they will look better than the girls...=D Never ending story...school, tuition, homework and TV...The Form 3 seems happy when they come out after the exams...is it that easy? If it is, then the Form 2 this year is dead...Just hope miracle happens...Give Your Best in Everything =)

SORRY

Sorry!!! I'm sorry to everyone, especially Yen Yen...i'm sorry for hurting and ignoring you and everyone...very sorry...i didn't mean it...sometimes, i just do things without using my little brain...Argh....so tired...so much homeworks...the teachers...they are showing their love to us in the wrong way!!! Dun worry...we'll repay back the love u gave us one day...one day...hahaha...

Continuous life

Starting a new day is definitely not easy...exam season....everyone's studying but me...not prepared at all...just hoping tat i'll do good and get into the best class...next week going form 3...why is it so damn fast...anyway, just be positive and positive...i can do it!!! Going high...school's life especially...the form 1 all getting crazy because of the PMR holidays...everyday play water...siao...we're here having "Save Our Water" campaign and they're there wasting water...hahaha...sounds like a politician...Hmmm...the past Mooncake Festival...kinda quiet...a few sips of whisky and TV the whole night...lol...=D

Go to Hell!!!!

Cannot tahan d....omg...i broke the record...3 weeks didn't go online d...exams coming but my brain is still deceptive...hahaha....wats wrong with him??? Someone tell me now please...or maybe not...tell me after the finals...or maybe i dun wanna know anything...so....haih....bb till october...

Challenges

Looks like the school and students are all still the same...But my English teacher.....she's so ill since a month ago and now she's still like tat...She said b4 tat she hates to be sick lying on the bed because she feels like a useless person...but how could this happen to her...she's such a good person...always thinking for others and helping ppl...Maybe its God's will, we can't stop it...maybe God just want her to rest...dun have to face all kinds of pressure and stress tat she has been taking all these years...And my classmate...she got apendix and have to go for operation...she's a very active and intelligent person...love discovering new things......I just dun know when my turn will come and i have to leave everything.......Sometimes, its kinda funny tat kids this generation dun understand wat's life or finding the life tat they want...In the past, are children like this? No, they were just thankful to God for the life He gave them and appreciate everything and everyone around them...Tats their life...Maybe today's children are more mature and have their own thinking and leadership skills...and stubborn too...

Wow...

Quite long didn't online...many things happened...going to school today...i wish everyone's still the same or better...Haih...yesterday family, cousins, relatives gathered in grandparent's house...didn't even talk to each other...we're like strangers...is it because they're from chinese school and we're from methodist school? But we can speak mandarin too...Or is it tat there's just ntg to talk about...And my aunties...Omg...y must they gossip or talk about other ppl all the time...They're like talking about each of us... one at a time...i'm like wondering how they know so much about our lives...hahaha....professional spies...Last weekend, kinda gone crazy...suddenly like shopping so much =P Tomorrow...the day of no mercy...hahaha..nola....its my mum's 45th birthday!!! I'm such a useless child...always hurting her feelings by saying nonsensical nonsense things...Am i mad or psycho or maybe both...i tot of becoming a famous taylor and the biggest and richest chocolate factory owner in the whole wide world last night b4 i slept....hahaha....how nice if its real...i wanna have a life...a peaceful, happy, moderate life.....

Haizzzzz

Hmm...really having a terrible moment thinking tat school holiday is ending and i have not done anything yet...btw, wat am i supposed to do? Yesterday...enjoyable but totally sucks because of someone who....sucks? Hahaha...every day watch one movie...=D Everyone is crazy during the holidays...some because of boringness...some because of missing school and teachers??? Tomorrow.....wat am i going to do?