It's been some time. I often do not know what to type about anymore. It's like as a tiny plant grows into a mature tree, it has lesser and lesser space to breathe. Competition for sunlight, water and oxygen gets tougher day by day. Until there reach a day, you gasp, suffocate and eventually wilt to death. You can be all jolly and giggly in the day but once the sun's hidden behind the dark mysterious silhouette, it's a whole new ecosystem. The rules we play by are different, the nature of the players, the game essentially. Some treat it as one, non-surprisingly. However, of course, there's always the brighter side of it. That's when you look up far into the sky and the moon is shining for you, smiling down at you as if saying, "Child, it's not over yet."
It isn't fair really to judge a person on one occasion. Then again, we do it all the time; being controlled by our volatile emotional self. I guess we get it already that people do not just 'burst' into explosions. It accumulates over time and one not-so-fine day, it erupts. We forgive them anyway. People say hurtful stuffs on social networking sites hoping that the person whom it was directed to will come across it and feel at least a needle poke in them. We forgive them anyway. People take advantage of you thinking that you don't react to situations. We forgive them anyway. People do many things. But we don't forget that easily, cause it leaves an impression. A memorable and lasting one.
Anywho, despite the challenges, I am grateful. To have faced these challenges at this age where strength and passion are still new elements to be explored and conquered. I am grateful to have curious friends who ask and do things with lots of guts. I appreciate people who take the first move and who are not shy in admitting their unconventional needs and wants. I really look up to people who takes in blows after blows and still are able to plant a sweet smile on their face like no one knew about the storm. Definitely not the hypocrite type but rather the super humble and giving type who has patience of a nun.
*Found this in my draft so I'm gonna just post it. If it's worth your time reading on, life's good currently, actually it got way way much better a couple of days ago. Like a huge change of wind. It wasn't easy though. So much sorrow and excruciating pain have been shared among us for years. The change would not be easy, but we're gonna give it a chance and make this the best decision we ever gonna make as a team and most importantly, as a family. Thank you God for making this dream a reality. I wish everyone the same miraculous happenings and beautiful days ahead. Never give up and stay strong. The day you're waiting for may just be tomorrow.
