You don't know how much something means to you until you lose it, as clichéd as it sounds. But it's true. Not that I don't appreciate what I have but it's the realisation that the time is here and I have no excuses but to face it. It's not as difficult now, it's been quite some occurrences. Or maybe it's because there was a proper goodbye. It's really comforting to know that your relationship is still as warm as it used to be although you don't spend much time updating each other about everything. It's one of those connections that you say yeah, I can be friends with this fella. Like buddies. I can say all I want and not worry if I'm gonna be judged. Maybe I will but well, it doesn't matter, there's too much to remember anyway.
And then, there are also other forms of friendships where you say, yeap we're friends. But you hold back, you're not as blunt and crazy as you can be with some. Everything just seems, composed. Your thoughts, actions, requests, everything. Cause you don't wanna involve too much emotions into it. You try not to make a fool out of yourself. Embarrassing blunders and stuffs. You try to spend as little time as possible, saying don't cross it. But still, you hope that things will turn out better as time goes by cause everyone deserves the same equal chance, until they disregard it.
Human interactions are really interesting. You could tell so much by just observing. Makes you value and put in more effort into yours more. Happy August. :)
