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Well, someone's been practising her driving. I swear it's still scary as crap. Sweaty palms and a huge sigh of relief every time I get down of the four-wheeled beasty machine. But it's getting better now I guess. Definitely. It's all about practice, said the wise man. :). Getting honked at is nothing now, yea I'm that unstoppable out there.

Half a year had passed. Honestly, I wish I'm at somewhere, anywhere on a trip right now. Kinda really need and want one. Or a one-day shopping spree would do. Lunatically bored.

And I can't believe I stayed up for the match last night. Oh well, happy night.

I look to the clouds for comfort

Sometimes, people tend to rely too much on others because when things don't turn out as it should have, they are spared from the blame, guilt and the 'I told you so'. They'd rather follow closely behind someone's badonkadonk than come out and speak their minds. Well, they only exist to give way for the more hard-headed ones to take the lead. If everyone were to run to the microphone at the same time, nobody's gonna be able to hear a word. Same goes to any relationships. You don't need to say much to make it break, but it only takes one small action to make it work.

"At least they self-pity, and not the other", sudden thoughts that clouded my mind while reading Yen Yen's muse. You know the feeling when you've worked so hard for something and when you have finally gotten it, you don't feel anything. Looking at the people around you who did not get what they wanted, you feel like you don't deserve what you've gotten. It's really pathetic. No matter how much effort you put in, you won't be able to enjoy the outcome at the end of the battle, good or bad.

You can't always have everything your way, they said. Well, as long as you are happy and contented being yourself, there's no reason to feel ashamed and demeaned. I wonder how does having a baby feel like(NOT parturition). Lol just saying. But their clothes are so tiny and cute. Arww :').

O, Anna Sun!

The holiday is indeed getting weird with me spending my precious seconds doing well, weird things. Went to campus to read novels and then, visited a friend who's working at the mall, ate ice-cream, before that 'accidentally' slipped a super awesome puzzle at the McD counter into my bag, walked the entire mall to get back to the car and finished two seasons of TBBT in about a week's time.

I'm adapting to the lack of need for organisation, planning and time-conscience. It's kinda a mixed feeling thing. You feel all free-spirited at one moment but at times, it turns to frustration and nothing-ness. You just get lost really, aimless. And in Dreamland, it's insane, what I could dream of. Don't wanna remember any of those please.

Strange things happen but well, for a good reason you'll realise some day.

Don't you just love how certain things in life work. :) Chao amigos, good days.

We Should Be Swimming

Habits. The funny thing about habits is that you won't know if it's bad or not, or if it's even going to be a habit when you first delve into it. Until one day when you've decided to quit that you realise it has become a huge part of you. Doing it gives you the comfort and pleasant feeling that only you can understand. It's never easy to quit but to start, it's a whole different story. Everyone has their lonely, empty moments. Nevertheless, it's not the end of you. Good things only come to those who wait and persevere, aight.

I can't believe this.

Seventeenth

Howdy. I hate to say this, but I'm so sick of holiday already. Mind's too vacant it flies aimlessly and was kind enough it brought back souvenirs. Thank god for the good melodies in the background. Maybe a trip next week, just maybe. Good weekend :).

Set The Fire to the Third Bar - Snow Patrol
Maybe - Ingrid Michaelson
Breathe - Angels and Airwaves
Calling Me Names - Good Old War
Volcano - Damien Rice
The Symphony - Snow Patrol

Fairytales

To all the free at mind and heart, congratulations. We've persevered and thrived through this one year and whatever happens, be proud because we came out of the battle alive! Lol exaggerations. So one chapter is closed. The next chapter, 24th September 2012. It's really not that far away, time flies and before you know it, it's right in front of you. And things that happened, it seems as though it just happened yesterday. Scary.

Anyways, happy holiday and go crazy. :D

Mi Ohana ♥. 

Breathe

13 hours more and we're officially free. Yup, everybody's counting down. These few days have been a total change of lifestyle. Can't wait to read this awesome super red book :). Yea I bought it because it's red and it's JP. 

Still getting used to this.

"I come to love, not war. So let Me in."

You in my dream again

Two downed, two more to go. There's quite a lot more to stuff into my brain but my mind is just too distracted to do that. Recently, there's been things that kind of surprised me. It's really disappointing. I mean, it's coming to the end already, why can't things just remain pretty for a lil' more. That way, I'll continue having this good, pleasant memories of them. Now, it's destroyed, it's hard to say this but it's the truth.

Just one week, and you have changed so much. Now I see how badly you do when you lose your glasses. But I'll understand and I'll just look past it. It's not the right time to be thinking of this anyway. And the other, your every act spells selfish, weak and insensitive. I feel sick just typing this, I don't want to go on. I don't like speaking the bad sides of people but these people are not typical acquaintances. But I know my position in this, I have no right to speak as loud as the others. But my eyes are clear and can't be fooled. It's coming to an end, like I said. Perhaps I should go on being silent to protect this pretty lie.

Just recently, I was reminded of a very important habit that we often neglect being so caught up with our own lives and problems, that is to never judge a book by its cover. A person who's quiet or harsh could have a thousand and one problems behind their strong exteriors. They might be wanting to hide something or to see if you're concerned enough to notice and make the first move. It's tiny things like this that determines how close you are in connecting with a person. It's funny how all those happy moments just wipe out of your head for a while when you start to have bad ones. I'm glad I have met true, real supporting friends though who is such a blessing from Him.

Well, all these stuffs.. I am a real sensitive I know. Lol I guess the stress level has gone too low that my mind has become too occupied. And the diarrhoea, flu, stomachache and dizziness. The moon was so round and bright just a few days back and now, the strong winds and storms are coming to accompany us tonight. May the force be with us, as what Kam said. All the best for the remaining days, amigos. :)

Suddenly I have this feeling,

Tasting copper in my mouth

Copper Down - The Boy Who Trapped the Sun