The Polar Dream

So I'm sitting here typing in uni alone cause it's the semester break, everyone's out there having fun or back in their hometown and I'm here finishing some tasks before I leave for a long conference tomorrow. I'm really excited, there's gonna be 600 plus delegates. It's simply insane. Thinking back, I'm gonna be facilitating with some of my teammates from my team 'Tiger' last year. How time flies, people changed for the better and now we take the same path of growing further together. I truly hope to plant some seeds and inspire some beans to sprout during this conference. It did wonders to me, I hope the same for others. That's the beauty of being in this organisation.

The thoughts that linger in the air, it comes and goes according to the direction of the wind. You get hold of some and some, it sticks with you like stubborn pollen. One of them speaks, "How do you know if you're happy?" When you're physically alone and you say, I'm comfortable being alone, I'm grateful for the soul given back to me when I woke up this morning, I'm thankful for this very moment that I'm living in and there's nothing more that I could have asked for. People say you're weird but you know that you're unique that way. You're confident being the quirky you because that's who you truly are. You are significantly more vulnerable to certain people compared to others. Funny thing, you're not afraid that they may backstab you because you know that everything is a choice, out of free will. You have chosen this path and you naturally assume responsibility over it. So what's happiness. When a person says, "I'm happy"? To me, being happy comes with gratitude. That way, it's a sustainable form of happiness, a higher form of happiness.

It's a short post cause I'm gonna go back to the 'epic love story' I started reading after a year it being on my shelf. Tata and Happy Chinese New Year, lovelies. :)

She's beautiful, he's beautiful.

But life has its magnificent way of spicing things up. 

A Continuation

So it's the new year. Happy New Year! Everyone's celebrating it with lots of positive zing and hopeful wishes. It's nice to see to a point where you kind of realised that these people who are talking about changes and new beginnings, they're not actually talking about themselves. More like what they expect to get from the new year, from the universe, from the superior being they believe in. For me, I've checked and crossed on the sheet where I wrote my 2013 resolutions on. Realising that a yearly resolution isn't gonna work for me, I did a half-yearly one. I learned about this resolution model from a motivational coach two years ago, it's pretty brilliant as it encompasses all aspects such as studies, finance, mental, etc. instead of the sole aspect which agitates us the most. Writing them down, you realised how weak you are at certain aspects. You realised how lost you are and how much effort you've put into running away from it.

I've come to face my fears, writing things that I'd probably laugh at years later. But I think having the gut to pen it down shows enough interest to give it a try. Looking back, 2013 has been one of the most life-transforming and enriching years. Of course, the active involvement in AIESEC contributed the most to who I am today. I've always been an active participant in clubs and societies, taking up leadership roles since high school. It's not for the extra credits and what not, it's just a channel of spending my time, enriching my experience in the particular educational institution, learning new things, doing things out of the classroom, perhaps meeting new people too. I'm grateful for all the doors opened for me, the genuine souls I met, the nurturing hearts I've connected with, the generous people who embraced my unique personality and the lovely companion at all moments.

January, faced with exam and attended MyLDS. Dramatic me on one of the nights during the conference, I'm truly glad that I let myself loose and share the challenges I was facing. At the end of it, I was motivated to take up more challenges instead of the initial thought of quitting. Then comes the festive season, the usual overeating and meet-ups with friends and relatives. I got myself a smartphone too XD. Elections was nerve-wrecking, glad I passed and given the chance to experience this learning pathway. Attended SEA Congress in April, where I met lovely people from the whole SEA region. It's amazing how we still keep in touch and buzz each other every now and then. Studies got more hectic nearing the middle of the year, glad I passed all my modules. If you're wondering if pharmacy is tough, it is. I don't know, maybe it's my bad habits. Throughout the year, I've met many new people and bid farewell to many as well. The beautiful thing in each relationship you build is the memories you leave behind, it's never really gone. Attended more local conferences, this time playing a different role of the driver instead of the receiver, jumped into a random opportunity of facilitating for the very first time and man, at such lovely venue; Port Dickson beach! Speaking of randomness, the most random thing of 2013 was the honour of organising the 45th Anniversary of AIESEC Malaysia. The most intensed, stressed, craziest two months the team had experienced which bonded us so tightly. And I can safely say that my 20th birthday was over-celebrated and exaggerated. Seriously YOLO or what those people. But grateful, I really appreciate every surprise, effort, wish, gift, love, care and blessing showered upon me. I don't know what I've done to deserve all that but it made me more determined to give back more this year. Thank you to everyone who has played a part in enriching my 2013 and it shall continue on with greater force in 2014. Let's live it to the fullest! :)

Lessons of 2013
#1 Friends who bring you out for dinner and willingly be your driver are super rare
#2 Everything you do involves commitment, there's no reason of being afraid of it
#3 Love is a verb, not a feeling
#4 It's okay to not have a passion, but not discipline
#5 Stop running away
#6 Take the things you do seriously, not yourself
#7 Being able to give is a gift

We've come too far to give up who we are

So let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars