One minus one is still one

I don't know mandarin that well but I will understand if you were asking me simple stuffs like my name or have I eaten.Whatever it is, language is not a barrier in anything (yea right). Haha. I heard this multi talented guy's voice out of nowhere during dinner the other day and it really caught my attention. It sounded like What Are Words. Perhaps the feeling or emotion of that beautiful piece of music.

Ginseng Dinner yesterday was okay. A-. :) 

Through the falling rain,

a shower of shivering 'S' sounds,

I watch your umbrella recede

No city girl at heart

The other day when the threesome got 'excited' :)

 The Pig Intestine Rice Set Meal

Haih. The moment I started typing, my mind just went blank. So last Saturday, the choir 'oldies' walked down the memory lane and met up with the juniors. Walking into that school doesn't feel the same like it used to anymore, its striking orange colour really gives me the weird, not-so-friendly vibes and the orangy doors and everything makes it so warm. Nevertheless, the colour definitely made the students ever energetic and super lively. The inter-house volleyball competition was going on at the basketball court and the audiences were like cheering everytime a fella managed to serve the ball over to the other side. Haha. I used to be the one so hooked up with that yellow-white-blue ball once upon a time. I miss wearing my No.7 jersey in the court, getting myself tanned before CNY and the grueling trainings weeks before competition.

Now, I'm a couch potato munching honey stars in front of the tv. I was supposed to be at work in a hotel now till midnight but as expected, the same old reason was haunting behind their mind, "Because you're a girl..." I know.. but I grew up with three brothers and learned Taekwondo, instead of ballet or piano since I was seven. I actually tried imagining what will I do if I have a daughter and yea, I think I get what they mean and their worries. And the hormonal imbalances that my baby girl will often go through. Lol.

Dreams. I had lots of crazy dreams while asleep but what about the real dreams which I want to achieve in reality. Since primary school, I dream of having my own chocolate factory. Yes, seriously. I really love chocolate so much. Even when baking, I like trying out all those recipes with the delicious word 'chocolate' first. Maybe a factory is too huge a dream but perhaps, a little English concept cafe facing a serene beautiful garden which serves homemade chocolates, cakes, freshly baked scones, hot chocolate, coffee, tea and souvenirs for the tourists from another part of the globe. And in my past time, I could just sit at the most strategic spot of the garden, enjoying the gorgeous scenic view accompanied by the soothing sound of water splashing the man-made fountain while reading the daily papers and having my cup of hot chocolate and two pieces of mouth-watering homemade Belgian chocolate. Ahh...so peaceful. Hehe :)

...and admire the different patterns of clouds in the sky.

 ...and hurt myself while gardening.

...and bake when I'm having special guests over.

 When the lady above reaches 70, she'll probably be a fat, voluptious, curvacious (maybe still sexy) woman with the crooked front teeth smiling like she just killed a cat and no one knows about it. In the evening, she will tell stories to a group of children at the park and on weekends, she'll sing at her friend's night bar, "You make me feel, you make me feel, you make me feel like a natural woman~"

Everybody said she's lonely

'..but I feel him with me all the time' 

she ended with a tear

Chariot

Howdy. Okay where to start from.

For a few nights, I slept at 5am. Well, showering at 9am never felt so exceptionally cold and chilly, yea cause I'm a pig I usually sleep till 10 or 11am when everybody else is in work or college. When I was about to enter the bathroom, one message came and my heart skipped a beat. A message, who could that be. If you're asking me what time I'm going to school, I'm gonna slap you. It was... "Good morning, KY. Are you ready. Whatever is the result, be happy. ENJOY"  That, was the breaking point. It was also the reason which kept me heartened for the rest of my day.

After school, Wei Wei, Yen and I took the train to Mid Valley, wanting to excite ourselves to the max for the day. Well, the most 'chih kek' thing I did was having the Pig Intestines Rice Set Meal which consists of pig's intestines and so many big cubic pig's blood in a hotpot. Luckily there was the lotus root soup to aid me swallow those stuffs into my stomach. Really, I think I'll really enjoy the pig's blood if I'm a vampire cause it's so darn fresh. Yen Yen claimed she saw Amber Chia, I only saw the back of her. And the 'joke itself' did the most 'chih kek' thing by not buying a ticket back to Klang. Went home, took a quick shower and went out again for a late dinner with the family.

Morning. No.. Okay.  

What you want?

I don't know. Depends on the result.

Yes. That is what I said. Be happy.

Okay, I will. Thanks.

Please always must be happy. Do not allow anyone or anything take it away. Remember.

*****

Congratulations. Are you happy?

Yes.

Thank you. thank you so so much. I love you.. I finally realised, it is not the black and white that counts, it is the red - your heart, your flesh, your blood, everything that you're made of. Have a great journey wherever you are whether it's the trough or the crest. Adios.

A to Z

I can't spell 'hnppaiess'

when 'pessimistic' takes all my  's' 

Warwick Avenue

...some of the text messages I often receive from the queen at work while rotting at home.:) I kind of understand the role and responsibilities of a mom (or rather the home chef) but not quite the feeling of being one, yet.:P

Slip out of my T-shirt

feeling Mother's gaze

trace over me

Foxtrot-Two-November

Well the weekend was nice with the family. Dad had been working on weekends for the past three weeks but when he came back in the evening, we welcomed him with a lovely homecook meal ready on the table. The regular four of us now, no longer six. Dinner became earlier for us as brunch became a habit on the weekends. After dinner, we headed to the mall, bought tickets for World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles and wandered around till the time comes. I don't know why but most of the movies are rated 18 so we had a tough time deciding which movie to watch cause the lil' one got stopped at the entrance the week before when we watched The Fighter, so better not take the risk again. Uhm The Fighter was not a bad show but there were like a million times the F word was being heard throughout the show and honestly, I felt like puking after the first ten minutes itself. But yea, Melissa Leo's one-of-a kind acting made it bearable. World Invasion was like 2012, it was exciting and touching towards the end.

On Sunday, mom and dad went for another movie while two of us went for ice cream at McD and then shopped for flour, sugar, face cleanser and so on. I think we did get quite a number of intense stares from the public. I swear we did. After that, we went for supper. Oo yea, I feel bloated. :)  Did you see the moon last night. So so beautiful. Mesmerising. Tomorrow's a Tuesday, yea tomorrow's a Tuesday. Mondays always feel weird, somehow. 

Double cheeseburgers,

your favourite

mine too after the XO

Above The Noise

Brooches are fascinating, especially handmade ones. After watching Martha Stewart, I gave it a go. Went through my mom's sewing treasure box and picked out a blood red zipper, thread of the same colour and a shiny needle. Took me two whole hours to finish it and like it's an unbreakable curse, pricked myself again. My blood today was like more diluted than usual. Anyways, coming back to the brooch, I'm pretty happy with the end result. Like seriously, from a zipper to a flower brooch?

They are beautiful

in their simplicity

and surrender to the universe

Home

Who would have expected an 8.9 to hit it and wipe everything out of sight. Some say they deserved it, some say it's a warning of something greater. Thank god their area is not affected, I can't get them, I really hope they're safe at home. *sigh* really not in the mood to continue typing, I feel like 40 degrees. Well, spare a couple of minutes looking at the sky and if it makes your heart heavy and uneasy, you know that there's something you can't just leave at the old stacks of books. The sky is clear today and the clouds, flat and mundane. Yea, remember to check out the moon this Saturday night :) Here's some snaps. I call it culinary therapy, kinda like retail therapy, only it doesn't cause a hole in your pocket.

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I'm lucky I know

But I wanna go home

Stereo Love

My eyes grow tired

in fields so vast

they laugh at all my words

Broken Arrow

I don't know why but life is pretty hard on me lately. Yesterday, there was the silent treatment all day long. It sucked. Well, I'm playing Fashion World in Fb just to pass time, what a waste of time I know. It's kinda weird though, guys coming out from the fitting room in a dress? Just crazy.

I can't say that I've been good but after this weekend, something will change for sure. Something is holding me back and that's the future. I'm scared, like a mouse hiding in a hole. I don't take for granted what others are thinking and expecting from me anymore, is it a good thing. Being so idle at home, you can't run away from sudden thoughts and imaginations which could really make you wonder who you are and you start to get confused, losing yourself in a whole new division of emptiness. Even when you're concentrating on doing something, your weightless mind gets blown away and disappears when you accidentally cut your finger. And the unfamiliar yet most recognisable voice echoed behind your ears, "Stop running away, there's nowhere to go..."


Omg..Michael Buble, MGMT, MLTR, Maroon 5 and bla bla bla. No not going any haha. By the way, Happy International Women's Day tomorrow :) 

Caught between two choices

I lie spread-eagled

in perfect bilateral symmetry 

Good guy, bad temper

Why oh why.. I lost everything, EVERYTHING. A whole load of photos and..*sigh* so down right now. It's all fate.. Thinking back, Saturdays always felt like a fun-filled, busy day with friends out of the house doing crazy things but not quite the same anymore now.

Maybe a car isn't what I need, but a companion who will drive me to the beach and we'll just lay under a nice cosy shade and just enjoy the soothing sea breeze till dusk breaks in and due dawn, everything will be as new as a freshly picked tomato.

Sharing in the sun with you

Summer's first tomato

skin firm yet delicate

What Are Words

She doesn't simply bake for anyone so say the magic word if you want one bite. And no, not please. :)

What are words 

If you really don't mean them 

When you say them 

What are words 

If they're only for good times 

Then they don't 

so beautiful..

A book who cries

Yesterday, I almost killed the man, the deer and myself. It was that close.. I couldn't imagine the same dream that I often had, had almost came true. Anyway, thank you god for the blessed day today. 

I've been having lots of dreams lately, every night has its own story. It's both interesting and somewhat crazy. Sometimes, it's the truth or the the truth to be, I believe. Something happened towards the end of last weekend and I merely assumed that it was the normal argument they usually have. I was wrong. "Things will get better soon, right?" I kept reassuring myself on the bed last night. I mean, how can hard built love and happiness slip off from our lives so easily when anger and sadness stopped by by only two seconds and all the years of being together doesn't mean a thing but a regret. Well, I've been pondering on the same thing since I-dont-know-when.. but I've stopped thinking about it now. It's a shame how things had become but I promise, the next journey will be a great one. 

Waiting for your call

Wondering just how drunk you were

when you said those things to me

Let's Get Ugly

Aloha. My whole body is aching haha. Seriously. Sunday, four of us had a rather late dinner in a place called Billion by us. Then dad suddenly said wanna go for a show in the car and all of us just kept quiet, not wanting to layan his cheeky idea. We just left him to decide on his own, I don't know why sometimes this happens and we kinda don't feel bad about it, somehow ;) And we finally arrived at Bukit Raja's Jusco. Yeah it was a last minute thing and definitely not a bad thing at all. We watched The Rite. It was a thrill to watch it, my bro and I couldn't even sit in our seats quietly. When the gross parts appeared, we started laughing cause the two boys in front of us were like "Uhhh!" "Ahhh!" "Aduuuhh" like they were feeling the pain in them HAHA. And the suspense factor really makes you stay fresh awake till the end. Nevertheless, Anthony Hopkins and Colin O'Donoghue was a great pleasure to watch. 

Yesterday, we had the best faked-out-homemade-Hainanese chicken rice for dinner. Everybody tambah-ed rice :). It's just amazing how revolution had made our lives so easy and of better quality. Everything is in bottles these days. Cutting onions, garlics, ginger, chili and blending them altogether is not a hassle anymore. The look on their face, they were like "YOU cooked this..? Don't bluff lah." Heeee =D 

So much about food..what to do, it's one of the 3F's in my life. And yes, I walked home alone from the driving place today..

 Happy MARCH :)