Hello Mumma from Indiana

At the moment when you're having the strongest need for freedom, it crashes just like that and you actually felt like not wanting freedom anymore and RELUCTANTLY, accepted it. Tomorrow's a holiday =) I wanna get out of the house early, earlier than the normal going-school time and spend the whole day at somewhere really quiet. This Saturday is Graduation Day. Yes, I really don't know what it's going to be like. Hopefully not sad cause I've used up lots of tissues since late last year.. I've not said this for quite some time but time flies! Man..it's October already? No more time to lose but how to get moving. Grace Tay later :) I'm going to miss her sexy voice, his wise advices, her pregnant moments, his opera-singing voice, her erm...'what is potential energy, energy that has potential' kind of explanations and his cute belly. LOL. I really will, they are the ones who have made me who I am today. They are The Educators.

And I have a question

What is love?

What is love?

Is it giving up

Cause that's not how you raised me

Between dots and spots

I was a mushroom two years ago haha. Unbelievable. I seriously cried after leaving the hair salon, I kind of became a different person since then. Hmm...looking back at all those pictures just brings back lots of memories. Yesterday was AWESOME. Thanks God. =) Indian shows are seriously dramatic...cry cry cry then get back together after singing and dancing. Wow...haha. Have a good day humans. My new name is Lee Kai Yan. The Monk said, "Fatty is love, love is fat."

10.10.10

make a wish

Barbiturate, that's right

Trial's awesome..no kidding. I've never laughed so much during exam with my fellow awesome buddies-cum-adopted children. It's crazy...you say it's wasting time talking unbeneficial things, I say it's spending quality time and building memories that we can't have when we're a bit more grown up soon. It's true that nothing remains the same forever. Oh besides that, my sms shoot up like rocket, yea..Rachel's too for sure. Haha I fooled myself by speaking really broken Cantonese and Hokkien but it's so funny and we talked about the beginning of the end and how we'll visit Sal after we're gone. That fella wants to fight for the rights of gays somemore..haih haha.
Being frank is not a crime I know..but it just hurts sometimes without you realising it. I told myself it's okay to be there again, it's okay...everything will be okay. Haih..one more paper, Accounts but it's merdeka already I dont care. I spent an hour in the bathroom just now lol. I smell so good =D but my mind's still tangled and supercoiled. It's always like that..that's LKY. Last night, my subconscious mind had an industrious night making decisions and when I woke up, it's like Yes, I know what I've to do, lets do this. doesn't last long though cause negativity stopped by in just a few. I thought of the super past during Chem paper today and I slept off for a while..it was...not very pleasant. Not very much of a sucked up day yet, I'll never let that happen. Me take control of my life not the other way round.
Isn't it funny? People are busy thinking about pre-u, career, PR, imigrating and what not when we haven't even sat for our SPM. I do that too, it's simply enjoyable. I cannot stop thinking about that... what if one day I have memory loss..wow. I'm the kind who 'likes' pain, suitable being with people who likes causing pain.

K.C.I.S.E.V.O.L