Pants on, pants off

Sereno Bueno

So nice reminiscing the good old times from posts by friends.. Those memories will stay in our heart forever. It's so precious and this year was surprisingly the most enjoyable year of school in 5D despite all the pressure given by fellow educators to ensure that we keep up the excellent track record of the school. We rebelled as one, laughed as one and will excel as one. :)

I wanna thank everybody who wished me and gave me surprises. A huge fat overweight THANK YOU. I really appreciate it and yea, I cried reading some of the messages you sent me. Your 'Happy Birthday's are already the biggest most valuable gift. God bless you all. A late Happy Christmas to everyone. I celebrated with my family, aunts, cousins and grandma. Japanese buffet after a long walk in the mall was lovely. KL is still so overwhelming to me cause I hardly been to that area and it's so filled with 'high class' people. That's what I call them, they're always in high stilettos and legs moving like walking machine. Anyways, I didn't throw up this time like I did two years back due to the yam ice cream. The food was good, especially the salmon, cod fish and prawns. There were also the long awaiting green tea ice cream, which completes the whole feast. Thanks mum for everything =)

A few days left before a whole new chapter begins. Am I ready? Hmm no, I refuse to. 2010 has been a great year, great people, great adventures, unexpected things, ups, downs, stationary moments, everything.. The most important point is to always have a company to share the goodness with, let it be your parents, best friend, brothers, sisters, pet or a stranger sitting next to you in the cafe. If you can't find one, He's always there.

Happy New 2011 everybodeh

Caught in the snow, frozen in ice

5 Dedikasi class party was fantastic, no words can describe the fun we had in Elaine's house. There were no teachers, no adults in the house, just teens which made it even crazier but of course, we behaved ourselves well and still have a huge dose of fun. BBQ was great, Twister champ went to Sze Ying, played Charade headed by both of Elaine's brothers, we exchanged gifts and filled our stomach to the max. It was so funny, Ray could guess 'pole dancer' from my actions. Haha.

The weekend was okay, had dinner with WWF and family. She's going back to Australia again to graduate before CNY. She is madness. You have her, you have 24/7 stomachache, which is great =) My younger bro and I were just sitting and observing the adults. We realised there were similarities between my dad, uncle and grandpa, they sleep a lot and so easily. Haha. And my mum, aunt, Fong and grandma were in grandma's room chatting and laughing so loudly so Amethyst and I joined them leaving the guys at the living room.

Happy Birthday, Chiew Wei Wei. Have a blast. Wish you all the best and be showered by God's blessings always.

Sometimes the only thing words do is get in the way

Sometimes the easiest things are the hardest to say

Finale

It's seriously over. But there's still other challenges ahead, like driving. I don't know, I'm scared of driving. Today was one of the most memorable day in school ever. During the two hours gap, Ray, Mandy and I went taking photographs around the school compound and we went to primary school too. So much of memories was brought alive again. Lots of things had changed but all the awesome memories remain. Today is a good day :) Owh and MGS has totally turned ORANGE. Scary shades of orange everywhere, and the bright orange doors..

No more uniforms, no more brown-skinned exercise books, no more heavy textbooks, no more wooden desk, no more school toilet, no more morning assembly, no more white school shoes, no more MGS trademark socks, no more five days a week with awesome friends.. What's next.

duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

HOPE!

She loved it

Hope she'll love it

I didn't edit this. Beautiful huh?

When summer comes, winter must go

Can't sleep again last night. I actually played the block game in my phone in the dark for almost two hours I think..and I broke the record! Lol. After turning and tossing on the bed for another half an hour, I finally went to dreamland. Guess what, I dreamt of Miss Tay. Seriously different, she was like hanging out with us, the Delta students at the mamak! Her clothing was rather simple - a striped long sleeved shirt and skinny jeans with heels, she almost looked like a model. It was like a reunion and she was giving advice from table to table. Lovely.

My days are passing by quite swiftly, not wasted I hope. Early wake up calls on weekends for breakfast with grandparents is always nice. Their conversation in the car always caused us headache as their volume was constantly at the peak but hilarious at the same time. On Sunday, we went out with grandma and she used her new elegant Louis Vuitton Tivoli GM bag, a gift from Aunt Catherine and family who just flew back from their Paris-London trip. Stunning. The crowd was throwing long stares at her all the way wherever she went. Haha. However, she kept saying it'll look better with pockets outside and zip inside like her Coach bag we gave her last year.

Tomorrow's EST. Seriously, is everyone not preparing for it at all? Cause I think I'm gonna panic tomorrow morning..*sigh*. Open houses and reunions filling up the calendar for the last two weeks of the year real fast. We're soon going to kiss 2010 goodbye and welcome 2011 with a grin. Come January, everything will seem a lot more different and weirder than it is expected now, trust me. There'll be a minor construction work at my home soon, hopefully they don't cause a fuss to the neighbours and our sleep. I picked up something while filling the boredom at home, that is solving the Rubic cube. My younger bro was my sifu and a dude on Youtube was his sifu. The formulae...just crazy when I first saw it but I can solve it now :)

Clouds like floating sheep

Oh yesterday was fun. I finally had enough time for accounts and yea it was fine. One more to go now..EST. But the day didn't end well though. My dad picked me up an hour later and I was seriously going to cry waiting at the school's bus stop alone. Thank god I saw another teacher waiting so I went in the school to wait..ugh...younger's bro idea to fetch him from tuition first then me. Anyways, it's coming to the end of the year. I keep saying it because I really don't want it to come. Yesterday I can't sleep because there was a sudden pressure on my chest and breathing was a problem. I really need to get out and just chill and forget about everything for a day. Tomorrow's the Agong's birthday haha. I want to watch The Chronicles of Narniaaaaa :)

It's hard to adapt in such a short period of time. Sometimes, I feel like I rather lose something than having to suppress my strong feelings for it inside. It may kill me bad or make me tougher, I don't know. It still bothers me. I'm praying that it's just a long dream..

Glad it's over

I slept at 2.15am and woke up at 8 in the morning on a Saturday... This is a symptom of I don't know what. It's been like this..I felt so sleepy during papers cause when I have the chance to sleep, I can't. After the deadly Physics paper, it's worse. When people are resting their worked out brains, I was filling my mind with unnecessary stuffs. Anyway, as usual, mum and dad are out early for breakfast with grandparents, second bro went to uni and the other two are still finding their way out from dreamland. I don't know why, I feel like I've shrinked or my younger bro has grown taller..it doesn't matter. We're still the two little monsters who constantly tickles my mum's heart. Hey Happy December y'll :) I smiled when someone wished me that the other day because I was usually the one who wish them. Haha you're awesome.

It's December..Santa, food, holiday, awesome outings, family, joy, happiness. I suddenly thought of the church camp in Sungai Petani, Kedah when I was 10. The adults have their own activities, so as the children. Hence, me being so enthusiastic around all my other new friends, I won all the competitions LOL. Seriously, there were colouring contests, story telling contests and lots of art-related stuffs. I think I was inspired and motivated by my friend that time, Justin Gan. Ah it's been so long..I miss your sister, May Vin too. I was extremely over the moon because I've won so much prizes and the weird part was the adults kept saying I'm so young. Hmm. I really miss the blue chlorine-stained water..

Four more subjects to go. All the best amigos. Remember, stay away from hunger =P

Told you so

Haha it really happened. During History paper, my pen went out of ink! And I was like rushing like a cat gonna get bang by a car and there were 10 minutes left when I took a glimpse of the wall clock staring at all of us arrogantly..but there's one more essay to go. My left hand searched for another pen while my right hand still moving. Lol I laughed in my heart when the invigilator took my paper away and Renuka sitting on my right must be thinking I killed History.

My mum..haha we went out together to tapao lunch this afternoon and it was amusing? I dont know why. She's so cute, like the child in her is shining. She was like, 'Oh, I must bring grandpa here for breakfast next week, he likes this.' And my brother, I love him cause he can cook =P We had lamb for dinner yesterday. That's why I'm kind of feverish this morning. My younger brother gets my metabolism level high. We still play catching-catching till now, in the house =)

And friends..can go gila with all those Tamil words. Oh my god, we took a video that day in school. Rachel and I, newsreaders. Chunnn weh. I did the tamil version, she translated it to English. Kinda embarrassing too actually. November..it's November and then December. January 2011. Okay...too far. Hee have a great day!

Thanks for the memories

Spsst, it's tomorrow =). Yeh but don't freak out. I'm trying to control my emotions cause hormones are gonna fail me for sure. Lets give our best and not bother the people sitting around us in the examination hall. I think I'm gonna prevent myself from speaking to anybody in school cause they might realise I've changed into a different person. Ugh.. All the best okay haha. Make sure your pen has ink!

Everyone bleeds this way, just the same

Seriously, I was staring in darkness the other day when it was nearing 4am and my eyes were still wide open. I couldn't take it anymore, I said my prayers and the next second, I went to dreamland. Do you know what's the feeling of being unable to feel? A corpse. A walking living corpse creeps up my bed every single night and it slowly takes over my body, my soul and my life. You don't realise the changes that's happening in you until one fine day, someone burst out in front of you. You feel so freaking ashamed and you just feel like digging a hole and hide in there for the rest of your life. But too bad, we're not worms nor crabs to do that. We're God's gift so be like one. Face it. Solve it. Do everything you can so that you don't have regrets. Easy to say huh.. Yeh. When you're really in that situation and the suicidal temptations are all over you, try fighting it. Everyone's pressing you down, no one's there to lend a helping hand for more than two minutes, even if they do, they don't really have the patience because they themselves are going hell of a life inside. It's like that.. That is why we have a pair of legs and a pair of hands to get back up ourselves.

Rooftops off my head

On Tuesday, we did the blood test. It was fun. I was the squeezer haha, because I'm good in getting their blood out of their tiny poor fingers. Vino was the poker because she was merciless and precise. Rachel, the super efficient blood collector and Sze Ying, the calm mixer. We really became experts and even taught the other class people how to do it when teacher's not around. A few days left to taste the feeling of waking up early and going to school. After this, everyone's going to be scattered all over the world and communication becomes scarce. We might be forgotten but it's okay. We'll meet new awesome people and do crazy things, in the good way of course. It's just so vague right now. Everyone's planning ahead already, every one of them has a plan, a workable one. I'm just going to relax and go with the flow. Perhaps there'll be a better plan for me. I'm not scared to bid adieu but the feeling of emptiness that fills the heart after that just really scares me off completely. No one likes to be alone, yeah.

Mars

It all ended in a tragedy without an option.

Just once, have some faith

I want you, I want you whichever side it is, I just need you.

Hello Mumma from Indiana

At the moment when you're having the strongest need for freedom, it crashes just like that and you actually felt like not wanting freedom anymore and RELUCTANTLY, accepted it. Tomorrow's a holiday =) I wanna get out of the house early, earlier than the normal going-school time and spend the whole day at somewhere really quiet. This Saturday is Graduation Day. Yes, I really don't know what it's going to be like. Hopefully not sad cause I've used up lots of tissues since late last year.. I've not said this for quite some time but time flies! Man..it's October already? No more time to lose but how to get moving. Grace Tay later :) I'm going to miss her sexy voice, his wise advices, her pregnant moments, his opera-singing voice, her erm...'what is potential energy, energy that has potential' kind of explanations and his cute belly. LOL. I really will, they are the ones who have made me who I am today. They are The Educators.

And I have a question

What is love?

What is love?

Is it giving up

Cause that's not how you raised me

Between dots and spots

I was a mushroom two years ago haha. Unbelievable. I seriously cried after leaving the hair salon, I kind of became a different person since then. Hmm...looking back at all those pictures just brings back lots of memories. Yesterday was AWESOME. Thanks God. =) Indian shows are seriously dramatic...cry cry cry then get back together after singing and dancing. Wow...haha. Have a good day humans. My new name is Lee Kai Yan. The Monk said, "Fatty is love, love is fat."

10.10.10

make a wish

Barbiturate, that's right

Trial's awesome..no kidding. I've never laughed so much during exam with my fellow awesome buddies-cum-adopted children. It's crazy...you say it's wasting time talking unbeneficial things, I say it's spending quality time and building memories that we can't have when we're a bit more grown up soon. It's true that nothing remains the same forever. Oh besides that, my sms shoot up like rocket, yea..Rachel's too for sure. Haha I fooled myself by speaking really broken Cantonese and Hokkien but it's so funny and we talked about the beginning of the end and how we'll visit Sal after we're gone. That fella wants to fight for the rights of gays somemore..haih haha.
Being frank is not a crime I know..but it just hurts sometimes without you realising it. I told myself it's okay to be there again, it's okay...everything will be okay. Haih..one more paper, Accounts but it's merdeka already I dont care. I spent an hour in the bathroom just now lol. I smell so good =D but my mind's still tangled and supercoiled. It's always like that..that's LKY. Last night, my subconscious mind had an industrious night making decisions and when I woke up, it's like Yes, I know what I've to do, lets do this. doesn't last long though cause negativity stopped by in just a few. I thought of the super past during Chem paper today and I slept off for a while..it was...not very pleasant. Not very much of a sucked up day yet, I'll never let that happen. Me take control of my life not the other way round.
Isn't it funny? People are busy thinking about pre-u, career, PR, imigrating and what not when we haven't even sat for our SPM. I do that too, it's simply enjoyable. I cannot stop thinking about that... what if one day I have memory loss..wow. I'm the kind who 'likes' pain, suitable being with people who likes causing pain.

K.C.I.S.E.V.O.L

Happy 17th Birthday

Rudy Seah Kok Yiong

Sometimes it's hard when rain's pouring in
I used to worry what tomorrow would bring
Then you came along changed my world around
Gave me something to believe in when I'm upside down
And let me say I owe it all to you and I wanna thank you
For making the sun come shining through
I love you forever..

You know I know we would

Damn I love it!

=)

I love you

Listening to Coldplay

Haha..

She's like a fried ice cream

It's hard when you're always the blame in every situation. No one said it but paranoia has its way to kill one's heart. People say it's okay to make mistakes because you learn something from it. But..it is not okay to do it so often that people get sick of you especially loved ones. Sorry has no effect, only showing regretfulness but it's better than nothing at all. Not everyone is as strong as Hercules.. I'm at the tip of the trough of my life right now. I can't swim so chances to survive is lower than an average low..it scares me off traumatically day and night. I'll make it to the surface though, somehow..I know he'll always be there although all bruised and drenched with blood. I'm so grateful..I owe my life. If only we can see with complete rationality and perfect mindset all the time. It is never easy as much as we all wished it was. It, is a journey to explore and embrace. In conclusion, I need a map, a compass and a candle that will never die off or perhaps just a trustable loyal companion.

And I'm sorry

Sorry that I made you cry

Sorry, sorry that I told you lies

I'm sorry, sorry the way we fuss and fight

I'm sorry, sorry cause now you're

saying goodbye to me

If you added up all the good times

And compared them with the bad

You'd realise that our love

Was the best you ever had

LALALA!

Today is a good day. Happy Birthday Mum =) I love you so so much. You're the awesomest mum who makes me laugh with the word 'Shockalingam' at the most unexpected moment. I want to be like you some day..God bless you mum.
I liked Thursday but I love yesterday more haha. I'm weird and crazy but I think it's okay. I'm special, just being who I am. I appreciate people who can accept and cherish these qualities of me well. We're gonna barbeque the house tonight baby..oh yes no doubt about that but I want my marshmallow. Yea, Mandy, Sal and I took photo with Ms Tay the other day..Hee I'm still excited. She's so awesome, so electrifying. Kay..house chores here I come.

We.Are.All.That.We.Are

Droplets under the moonlight

Out of words as usual.. My eyes hurt so badly today, I think they're saying No..school again? Urgh... Anyway, I just love the weekend with my awesomest family members and soon to be sister-in-law :) The feeling is so lovely but nothing comes perfectly beautiful. There's lots of challenges coming from that way too but it was solved a couple of hours ago. Well, that was what I thought. It's haunting me..the one thousand and one probabilities of what else might happen. I've set my mind to accept whatever that's thrown to me but I did not set it to make decisions. Crappy as it is..capability of a chameleon is still present. Father..I talked to the bright shining moon today, it's beautiful..just like You.

Half of my heart, life, soul and sanity

On stake with you

God's coming down, reach out your hand

Goodbye to my smelly prefect's tie..no it's not smelly. I'm so grateful to have worked with Sab and Shad..I've gained so much and now, it's gonna be weird being amongst the normal students. I feel like I've missed out so much in life..just don't know how to get it all back. Maybe I just have to go on pretending that it's okay and let the ones enjoying it be happy and peaceful. It's so deep now..I rather throw it all completely than keep a piece of it and let it multiply slowly into a huge tumor. It's nothing big to the world but the world is nothing to most of us, is it.
She looks like she doesn't care, doesn't know, doesn't respond, doesn't answer, doesn't have emotions, doesn't have empathy, doesn't speak but she does have something, a heart with lots of unspeakable words..words that can only be heard when the unheard is sparked. It seems scarce when you listen with a pair of ears and see with a pair of eyes. Uncountable promises slowly clears the path to where she's heading, the light which shines the brightest always gets the most attention while the noble Sun behind it only deserves discriminations and harsh judgements. You think you know it all because she waves the white flag in every single war. The apple had turned brown, never green again in one, ten or a thousand years. Say your prayers while you still can, Jupiter doesn't wait to take off. Hallelujah it's one. Come on lets take this step together and embrace all meteoroids valiently. :)

I'm always in this twilight

Stone on the street staring at the moon

Mind's going circles, head's spinning marry-go-round, the roll of tissue is ever ready on the table for any leakage, he's looking at those droplets in disdain...'It' is feeling dumb and tiny. It's already August which means hungry ghost festival is here =) Can't wait for Merdeka..to wear saree and take many many embarrassing memorable photos in it LOL. Last week was one of the okay week of the year where my class get to tour around the Taylor's Lakeside Campus, we had Bio and Chemistry talks in school and I was absent to school on Saturday. I love the weekends =P Lots of application stuffs are going on like crazy and I'm having the unusual headache and breathing difficulty pretty often lately. No one should know when all these happens..
I'll try not to shed anymore tears.

It's just Venus crashing

It was a great one. The prefects' gathering..thank you ex-seniors who came and supported. Congratulations Belvin and the whole team for the extremely great job done. Whatever before that shall be forgotten and buried deep down the tip of the heart. It seriously was the most powerful pain killer of all, now I feel numb, like I can survive a gunshot right through my head. So 'awesome'.. Can't wait for the holiday to come cause I wanna fool around a lil before the trials. Crazy.. I'm looking at the testimonials suddenly and some of them I never knew of before. Okay that song has been playing in my head since I woke up..sweet. Ate too much chocolates lately =(

Heart, mind, soul

916 gold minus oxide and impurities

It ended for us =) bersyukur.. Good luck to the others. Lali gave back add math paper today weh, when there were only nine or so souls in the spacious classroom. I don't wanna know..donkey here I come haha. Last weekend was crazy, you know when things always happen when we least expected it, it's true. Well, we won Kumpulan Harapan in the Shine Competition..totally gila babi when they announced that. We just went insane, screaming till our throat sore along the way back in the bus. And mum shocked me with her sudden friendliness. It's Mother's Day came late lol. Tomorrow's our prefects' gathering. The preparation seems huge and elaborate but I'm not really involved in it this year. Kinda only did the backdrop today and that's all..sorry. Whatever it is, everyone else really is doing a superb job and it'll be a blast tomorrow. Tomorrow...=)

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Never belong here

Hi lol. Yeh I wasn't lucky enough to get it but whatever it is, I'm thankful. Congrats to those who got it, it'll be a great experience for sure. It's the mid of the seventh month in a glimpse so much had changed. So much had been embraced and future been thought of every now and then and it's always the positive path that lures me every single time. I dont know if it's the right way but the hardest road is usually more promising and rewarding in the end right. I leave it all to Him but never gonna give up giving my 100%. Shine Choir Competition's tomorrow. Last minute again but it's awesome, we're gonna shine like the brightest most elegant star in the sky Haha. And the plan after that is still vague.. The juniors are so naive..made me think that I was once like them going through all the weird first times in my life. Those experiences are so precious. They're not pain and hurtful anymore because time healed them all and the sweet ones multiply by folds every single day. Sugar, they're good but not too much in one go. Hormones imbalance la..how. Anyway, there's this one phrase that keep appearing in my mind I dont know why.. "Promise what you can keep and say what you can do."

Sing sing sing..

She - Elvis Costello

In My Arms

The past whole week was just awesomenessssss...HAHA.
It's going to end soon, too soon.
But a brighter light ahead I'm sure.
=)

Stay Beautiful

Happy Seventeenth Birthday Pops. Wish you a great birthday, forever happiness and may all your dreams come true. =)

Happy Birthday to Shank Guitar! Haha. Keep the whitest smile forever =D

They've got everything in their finger tips,

They dont need tips

LOL

He said, she said

i wanna have a life...a peaceful, happy, moderate life....

Her gravity makes me feel light-headed
small-talk turns to dust in my mouth
she doesn't know that I'm already
thinking bout how I'm gonna make her look my way

Sometimes I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
Cause' I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so careless
So lost, confused,
again I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over

All I wanna do is cherish that four letter word

Happy 99th Birthday, beautiful greatgrandma.. =)

She held my hands and still remembered me in her super awesome memory. I love her very much..

Today was a satisfying day for the laughing muscles after the whole week of what you call stress lol. Was a good day to release everything out with my buddy-cum-boss, Thatchu hahaha. Good wholesome month ahead and then half a year is gone but nothing's gonna change. The usual customes will remain but done realitically.

ILROUVDEY