Told you so

Haha it really happened. During History paper, my pen went out of ink! And I was like rushing like a cat gonna get bang by a car and there were 10 minutes left when I took a glimpse of the wall clock staring at all of us arrogantly..but there's one more essay to go. My left hand searched for another pen while my right hand still moving. Lol I laughed in my heart when the invigilator took my paper away and Renuka sitting on my right must be thinking I killed History.

My mum..haha we went out together to tapao lunch this afternoon and it was amusing? I dont know why. She's so cute, like the child in her is shining. She was like, 'Oh, I must bring grandpa here for breakfast next week, he likes this.' And my brother, I love him cause he can cook =P We had lamb for dinner yesterday. That's why I'm kind of feverish this morning. My younger brother gets my metabolism level high. We still play catching-catching till now, in the house =)

And friends..can go gila with all those Tamil words. Oh my god, we took a video that day in school. Rachel and I, newsreaders. Chunnn weh. I did the tamil version, she translated it to English. Kinda embarrassing too actually. November..it's November and then December. January 2011. Okay...too far. Hee have a great day!

Thanks for the memories

Spsst, it's tomorrow =). Yeh but don't freak out. I'm trying to control my emotions cause hormones are gonna fail me for sure. Lets give our best and not bother the people sitting around us in the examination hall. I think I'm gonna prevent myself from speaking to anybody in school cause they might realise I've changed into a different person. Ugh.. All the best okay haha. Make sure your pen has ink!

Everyone bleeds this way, just the same

Seriously, I was staring in darkness the other day when it was nearing 4am and my eyes were still wide open. I couldn't take it anymore, I said my prayers and the next second, I went to dreamland. Do you know what's the feeling of being unable to feel? A corpse. A walking living corpse creeps up my bed every single night and it slowly takes over my body, my soul and my life. You don't realise the changes that's happening in you until one fine day, someone burst out in front of you. You feel so freaking ashamed and you just feel like digging a hole and hide in there for the rest of your life. But too bad, we're not worms nor crabs to do that. We're God's gift so be like one. Face it. Solve it. Do everything you can so that you don't have regrets. Easy to say huh.. Yeh. When you're really in that situation and the suicidal temptations are all over you, try fighting it. Everyone's pressing you down, no one's there to lend a helping hand for more than two minutes, even if they do, they don't really have the patience because they themselves are going hell of a life inside. It's like that.. That is why we have a pair of legs and a pair of hands to get back up ourselves.

Rooftops off my head

On Tuesday, we did the blood test. It was fun. I was the squeezer haha, because I'm good in getting their blood out of their tiny poor fingers. Vino was the poker because she was merciless and precise. Rachel, the super efficient blood collector and Sze Ying, the calm mixer. We really became experts and even taught the other class people how to do it when teacher's not around. A few days left to taste the feeling of waking up early and going to school. After this, everyone's going to be scattered all over the world and communication becomes scarce. We might be forgotten but it's okay. We'll meet new awesome people and do crazy things, in the good way of course. It's just so vague right now. Everyone's planning ahead already, every one of them has a plan, a workable one. I'm just going to relax and go with the flow. Perhaps there'll be a better plan for me. I'm not scared to bid adieu but the feeling of emptiness that fills the heart after that just really scares me off completely. No one likes to be alone, yeah.