22 November 2010

Thanks for the memories

Spsst, it's tomorrow =). Yeh but don't freak out. I'm trying to control my emotions cause hormones are gonna fail me for sure. Lets give our best and not bother the people sitting around us in the examination hall. I think I'm gonna prevent myself from speaking to anybody in school cause they might realise I've changed into a different person. Ugh.. All the best okay haha. Make sure your pen has ink!

12 November 2010




Everyone bleeds this way, just the same

Seriously, I was staring in darkness the other day when it was nearing 4am and my eyes were still wide open. I couldn't take it anymore, I said my prayers and the next second, I went to dreamland. Do you know what's the feeling of being unable to feel? A corpse. A walking living corpse creeps up my bed every single night and it slowly takes over my body, my soul and my life. You don't realise the changes that's happening in you until one fine day, someone burst out in front of you. You feel so freaking ashamed and you just feel like digging a hole and hide in there for the rest of your life. But too bad, we're not worms nor crabs to do that. We're God's gift so be like one. Face it. Solve it. Do everything you can so that you don't have regrets. Easy to say huh.. Yeh. When you're really in that situation and the suicidal temptations are all over you, try fighting it. Everyone's pressing you down, no one's there to lend a helping hand for more than two minutes, even if they do, they don't really have the patience because they themselves are going hell of a life inside. It's like that.. That is why we have a pair of legs and a pair of hands to get back up ourselves.