Bygone spring

The interaction we make each day serves as a support system. It may be just a hello and goodbye but the fact that it is some sort of an acknowledgement creates a ripple effect of heartfelt gratitude to the rest of the world. It's amazing how such mechanism works. The vibrations produced from the vocal chord materialised as sound waves and eventually travelling through the nitrogenous-filled fluid medium, reaching out to a number you don't usually keep a mental record of. Or, if virtual, the optical mechanism pathway.

It's not easy being out there, vulnerable to other's flexible reach and conveniently made-up expectations. But the experience is worth it. The crazy things you went through with these bunch of people are things you never ever thought of since before acquaintance and now, you're flipping through immortalised memories of it in the form of photographs. You can't turn back time but memories will stay on for as long as humanity lives on this planet. And when the topic of death is popped, the bitter scent of regrets starts to fill the air. It'll go by.

Above everything that has been communicated, nothing is ever as what it seems like. As we see, feel, hear, taste and smell, we're making mental judgments at the back of our head which at the end of the day, may be entirely deceitful. That's the truth of it all. There's always the possibility of going wrong if we only rely on a sole entity. Hence, connections. Various depths and distances of it. 

Well, that was super random. Good day!

Take time

It's been some time. I often do not know what to type about anymore. It's like as a tiny plant grows into a mature tree, it has lesser and lesser space to breathe. Competition for sunlight, water and oxygen gets tougher day by day. Until there reach a day, you gasp, suffocate and eventually wilt to death. You can be all jolly and giggly in the day but once the sun's hidden behind the dark mysterious silhouette, it's a whole new ecosystem. The rules we play by are different, the nature of the players, the game essentially. Some treat it as one, non-surprisingly. However, of course, there's always the brighter side of it. That's when you look up far into the sky and the moon is shining for you, smiling down at you as if saying, "Child, it's not over yet."

It isn't fair really to judge a person on one occasion. Then again, we do it all the time; being controlled by our volatile emotional self. I guess we get it already that people do not just 'burst' into explosions. It accumulates over time and one not-so-fine day, it erupts. We forgive them anyway. People say hurtful stuffs on social networking sites hoping that the person whom it was directed to will come across it and feel at least a needle poke in them. We forgive them anyway. People take advantage of you thinking that you don't react to situations. We forgive them anyway. People do many things. But we don't forget that easily, cause it leaves an impression. A memorable and lasting one.

Anywho, despite the challenges, I am grateful. To have faced these challenges at this age where strength and passion are still new elements to be explored and conquered. I am grateful to have curious friends who ask and do things with lots of guts. I appreciate people who take the first move and who are not shy in admitting their unconventional needs and wants. I really look up to people who takes in blows after blows and still are able to plant a sweet smile on their face like no one knew about the storm. Definitely not the hypocrite type but rather the super humble and giving type who has patience of a nun.

*Found this in my draft so I'm gonna just post it. If it's worth your time reading on, life's good currently, actually it got way way much better a couple of days ago. Like a huge change of wind. It wasn't easy though. So much sorrow and excruciating pain have been shared among us for years. The change would not be easy, but we're gonna give it a chance and make this the best decision we ever gonna make as a team and most importantly, as a family. Thank you God for making this dream a reality. I wish everyone the same miraculous happenings and beautiful days ahead. Never give up and stay strong. The day you're waiting for may just be tomorrow.

Awegurls. LOL.

Festive season. Family dinners. Movie plans. Random hang-outs. Chit-chat session in the car. On the couch. Awesome food. Crazy laughters. Motherly advices from a not-so-motherly figure. Awkward moments. Funny teasings. What else. Jubilant snaps. And all the unspeakable, if there is.

You don't know how much something means to you until you lose it, as clichéd as it sounds. But it's true. Not that I don't appreciate what I have but it's the realisation that the time is here and I have no excuses but to face it. It's not as difficult now, it's been quite some occurrences. Or maybe it's because there was a proper goodbye. It's really comforting to know that your relationship is still as warm as it used to be although you don't spend much time updating each other about everything. It's one of those connections that you say yeah, I can be friends with this fella. Like buddies. I can say all I want and not worry if I'm gonna be judged. Maybe I will but well, it doesn't matter, there's too much to remember anyway.  

And then, there are also other forms of friendships where you say, yeap we're friends. But you hold back, you're not as blunt and crazy as you can be with some. Everything just seems, composed. Your thoughts, actions, requests, everything. Cause you don't wanna involve too much emotions into it. You try not to make a fool out of yourself. Embarrassing blunders and stuffs. You try to spend as little time as possible, saying don't cross it. But still, you hope that things will turn out better as time goes by cause everyone deserves the same equal chance, until they disregard it. 

Human interactions are really interesting. You could tell so much by just observing. Makes you value and put in more effort into yours more. Happy August. :)