Coexist

Much realisations about one self that brings great disappointment, self-doubts and fear. You think you're progressing well, getting ahead of everything else only to realise that you're only escaping the other end temporarily. It brings much concern as the inability of expressing yourself or untangling the knot creeps in. The dungeon that you think you've conquered time and again proves you wrong. The sole dungeon keeper is back to question your quest.

Missing - The xx

Jarrod & Rawlins

It was a good evening with good food, good ride, good company, good view, good dessert and good conversation. Sounds like a too good to be true description of one's day. Perhaps you just need a good intention followed by action to make a difference in someone's life.

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About eight months ago, I was in their shoes, having all these dilemmas and doubts about myself that nudged me every day and night until it was over. I now witness in them, people I have complete faith in going through similar struggle, similar battle. I wish I can make things better, I hope I can do more of the right things to knock the negativity out of them, if there is even a right thing to begin with. But here I realise there is no one ultimate truth. Everyone's journey is a uniquely crafted one, equally special for each one of us. And there is no way that we can walk the journey of somebody else's. I'm grateful that things are how they are at the moment, I would not want it any other way. But may I also wish for a better self, from every little steps that I am committing myself to at the present.

So, what's next?  

Cherry Wine - Hozier

The joke and the laugh

"Being alive is like being lost at sea. The water is never calm and things do get worse with the rain and unpredictable currents. But you keep staying afloat in hopes that you will eventually wash up on shore to find eternal peace and happiness. However, such fortune does not befall any random person and sometimes man grows content with the cruelty and harsh environment of the sea and decides that he no longer needs the land. But in the worst of cases, man finds himself on an island and although surrounded by people, he feels lost as he has grown to be more comfortable with the sea."

A very impromptu passage written by Mr. Omar Khan. A message that didn't mean much initially but connected really well with my subconscious that I sleep text the whole passage the other day. 

We often leave things unsaid, undone and unforgotten. I guess the trick is to dream about them, experience them as it they were real and keep being pushed forward by the positive image in your mind till you make it. Even if you fail, you will clearly remember that image that no one has but you. When needed, it will replay like a roll film.