Thank god I don't need to meet my friends today

One week passed so fast. Now we got to get back to the treadmill and keep up with everybody's pace so we don't be thrown further to the back. No more slacking. Easier said than done, always. This one week had been great though. Went out with friends on alternate days, watched two movies, finally read Sing You Home(amazing story), pampered myself with lots of guilty pleasures, stayed up late, skipped breakfast, became super lazy. :)

Went to Port Dickson today. The usual, we cleaned up the place, laid out all the offerings, prayed, chit-chatted while waiting, spent time at the regular beach we religiously visit every year and me, I just sat on the mat, snapping away while letting the soft sea breeze embrace my skin. I love it, the beach. For a while, all worries and stubborn thoughts just dropped off from your head, leaving you feeling so light like a feather.

I've always thought, I never had the chance to meet him. So, it's only natural to not miss him because I've never had the opportunity to get to know him. It's funny how you could miss someone you despise so much after years even though you really dislike him for everything he's done to you. But at least, there is that faint memory of that person in you rather than nothing at all. It's a shame but c'est la vie. I've learned the hard way to not hold on to the kite's line too tightly for it might snap sooner than you expect it to. But now, it's so hard to even start building a line.

Two more months, another chapter of my life will end. Everyone wants a happy ending, don't they. It may be fate or luck, but it's definitely lots of effort. I may not end up as someone I planned to be, but nevertheless, I will stay true to myself and be happy.

I don't know why I always sound emo in my posts but I'm actually kinda 'jumpy' inside?. Haha oh well. Reading my friends' blogs, I am really grateful to have them as part of my life. We're all incredibly different people by personality. I guess we complete each other like that :). Have a wonderful day every day.

And not forgetting, Happy April!

An 'estrella' in the night sky

I said don't screw up but I did. It was really frustrating but I can't show it cause everyone did so so much better than me, some perfect. Of course I'm disappointed. Twas the second time I cried at school. It just happened and worse, at the food court. I just called her and told her everything and she cancelled all her incoming calls just to comfort me. I love her more and more every single day :'). I've always tried to give my best in everything but I guess sometimes, your best isn't enough if it just doesn't belong to you. Not gonna be upset about it though, I still have a long way to go. For now, just gonna chill and enjoy my one-week break before I go back to war mode.

This week was pretty fun actually. We had our English roleplay based on the book, Flowers for Algernon. It is the most ridiculous book I've ever read really. Not really a fan of sci-fi genre. And yesterday, went to Ikea and the Curve after class with Ivan, Rachel and James. Today, had fun with the boys at Nottingham Campus. Twas so much fun. Twas like a road trip and we got into so many crazy things like the cop who caught us at the emergency lane. Seriously, that was the most stupidest thing I've heard a cop said. And his name was SAFARI. Anyway, we got 'fined' each ten bucks as a lesson. Well, then, we stopped by at KFC to fill our starving stomachs before regathering with the others there. It's been a while since we had that hell of a time of crazy laughters. Wish we could have more of this before everybody leaves :). 

I've been baking again. I miss baking so much. I feel like doing so much during this one week. Colour, cut, doodle, sew, stitch, swim, run, sleep, read, watch, climb, snap and more that I yet to think of. Wanna watch This Means War, The Vow and Hunger Games :(. I wanna go Aussie..

These babies containing cinnamon weren't well accepted.

Not gonna use this recipe anymore. :(

Ouh, my dinner last night.

The lil' one and I actually prefer food like this. Really.

These fellas..I call them shinies =).

Been on repeat:

Blue Jeans - Lana Del Rey

Another land called You

The twentieth day of the third month already. How do we keep up with time when all we do is meeting datelines of things we don't even like doing. There are many many things in the world that we don't enjoy doing, but somehow, we are 'gifted' so we happen to be good at it. And the funny part is, some people think it all comes easy to us. Like it just fell from the sky into our palms. I am not afraid to speak for what I think is right. I could probably just throw harsh words right into your face. But guess what, the harsher it is, the more care I have for you. And it sucks having to do that cause it hurts worse inside me and it seriously disrupts my concentration. That could be one of the reason why I tend not to get too close to people. I wouldn't care if you were just some random friend from another class. I would really be happier letting you do whatever makes you happy without constrain. 'Cause really, it's your life. I've got enough on my plate. Not a big eater too. But now, believe it or not, I am beginning to let you take up space on my plate. Just a tiny portion though, maybe just the gold lining round the plate. Lol :).

Today was indeed a really weird day. Unusual stuffs happened, in a good way though. Will it last, I don't know. Changes are good. Things are just so weird right now. Weird. Even words can't describe it. I might freak out and jump into the water and get lost but thank god, I can swim. Hopefully no cramps. Teehee. Have a good day, amigos.