A Continuation

So it's the new year. Happy New Year! Everyone's celebrating it with lots of positive zing and hopeful wishes. It's nice to see to a point where you kind of realised that these people who are talking about changes and new beginnings, they're not actually talking about themselves. More like what they expect to get from the new year, from the universe, from the superior being they believe in. For me, I've checked and crossed on the sheet where I wrote my 2013 resolutions on. Realising that a yearly resolution isn't gonna work for me, I did a half-yearly one. I learned about this resolution model from a motivational coach two years ago, it's pretty brilliant as it encompasses all aspects such as studies, finance, mental, etc. instead of the sole aspect which agitates us the most. Writing them down, you realised how weak you are at certain aspects. You realised how lost you are and how much effort you've put into running away from it.

I've come to face my fears, writing things that I'd probably laugh at years later. But I think having the gut to pen it down shows enough interest to give it a try. Looking back, 2013 has been one of the most life-transforming and enriching years. Of course, the active involvement in AIESEC contributed the most to who I am today. I've always been an active participant in clubs and societies, taking up leadership roles since high school. It's not for the extra credits and what not, it's just a channel of spending my time, enriching my experience in the particular educational institution, learning new things, doing things out of the classroom, perhaps meeting new people too. I'm grateful for all the doors opened for me, the genuine souls I met, the nurturing hearts I've connected with, the generous people who embraced my unique personality and the lovely companion at all moments.

January, faced with exam and attended MyLDS. Dramatic me on one of the nights during the conference, I'm truly glad that I let myself loose and share the challenges I was facing. At the end of it, I was motivated to take up more challenges instead of the initial thought of quitting. Then comes the festive season, the usual overeating and meet-ups with friends and relatives. I got myself a smartphone too XD. Elections was nerve-wrecking, glad I passed and given the chance to experience this learning pathway. Attended SEA Congress in April, where I met lovely people from the whole SEA region. It's amazing how we still keep in touch and buzz each other every now and then. Studies got more hectic nearing the middle of the year, glad I passed all my modules. If you're wondering if pharmacy is tough, it is. I don't know, maybe it's my bad habits. Throughout the year, I've met many new people and bid farewell to many as well. The beautiful thing in each relationship you build is the memories you leave behind, it's never really gone. Attended more local conferences, this time playing a different role of the driver instead of the receiver, jumped into a random opportunity of facilitating for the very first time and man, at such lovely venue; Port Dickson beach! Speaking of randomness, the most random thing of 2013 was the honour of organising the 45th Anniversary of AIESEC Malaysia. The most intensed, stressed, craziest two months the team had experienced which bonded us so tightly. And I can safely say that my 20th birthday was over-celebrated and exaggerated. Seriously YOLO or what those people. But grateful, I really appreciate every surprise, effort, wish, gift, love, care and blessing showered upon me. I don't know what I've done to deserve all that but it made me more determined to give back more this year. Thank you to everyone who has played a part in enriching my 2013 and it shall continue on with greater force in 2014. Let's live it to the fullest! :)

Lessons of 2013
#1 Friends who bring you out for dinner and willingly be your driver are super rare
#2 Everything you do involves commitment, there's no reason of being afraid of it
#3 Love is a verb, not a feeling
#4 It's okay to not have a passion, but not discipline
#5 Stop running away
#6 Take the things you do seriously, not yourself
#7 Being able to give is a gift

We've come too far to give up who we are

So let's raise the bar and our cups to the stars

Beacon

There's always a first time for everything. :)

Been shopping a lot lately. Got a new camera lens cause the old one broke, twice. Went to Low Yat for the first time, thank goodness for the helpful friend, everything went smoothly and I got what I wanted. Law of attraction much? Or maybe it's just luck. And the salesperson was extremely helpful.

Today, class ended early so headed off to more shopping. This time I had a mission and it was a tougher situation this time, because of the evil four-lettered-word everywhere, S.A.L.E. I must say that I am really pleased with the sales assistants in this particular outlet. Such friendliness, it melts away the disappointment and frustrations I had earlier.

What happened was these two ladies approached me, I was like fine just be nice, filled up the survey, answered tonnes of questions of theirs. And finally they got to the root of their 'ambush', asking me to watch a video, trying to brainwash me with the idea of salvation and to follow them to some place to do something. I don't know what to think seriously. I stood there because I respect the subject and did not want to be rude by just walking away from it.

Well, I suppose everything DOES has its first time. Let's embrace the last days of the year with lots of anticipation. Good days, amigos! :D

You were the one and it was enough

To be the one you were dreaming of

You were the one and we called it love

And now you take it all away, take it all away!

Take It All Away - Owl City

Getting to Zero

Ahoy! Happy Decemberrr. The best month of the year if you ask me cause it's when I get fat. :D

And yesterday was the World's AIDS Day. I think it's important to know and be aware about things around you although it doesn't directly affect you, yet. Before being a part of the HIV/AIDS project, I was as ignorant about it too. But if you know what it does to people, you would want to do something to curb the situation. Things are always there in front of, around us. Choose to care.

Ahead are some snaps  from the Setiawan-Sekinchan trip with grandma and mom the week before. I did learn a thing or two about paddy planting-harvesting thingy and saw what goes on behind the seafood export industry in Sekinchan. Massive stuffs.

Great week ahead, lovelies. 

*still excited for Mondays :P*

Plantlets of the paddy plant before transferring them to the soil.

It actually increases its survival rate.

Heap of gold!

Nah it's actually rice with clothes on. Or the conventional way of saying it, 'husks' on.

LOL.

The beautiful sights of the Setiawan temple.

What were they thinking. Lol.

 At Sekinchan village.

A sight you don't see every day.

 Malaysian oysters anyone?

'The Lucky Tree House'.

Some tv series were shot here.

♥♥♥

Restrain when you need to

Express when you need to

Everything in balance

You aim for

Epiphany

Hi there. Today's been great. Half of the usual crowd in uni, light drizzle instead of the usual thunder and storm, I don't know, it just felt different. The test was alright. And spending time with the interns was just wonderful. I kept forgetting and thought that they're locals. It's true that food connects people no matter where they come from. It's a universal subject everybody and anybody could relate to. Brought them on a tour around the campus like a qualified tour guide. They love our mamaks yo :).

Discovered many interesting things today; a friend I never knew I could share so much similar interests with, a validation that my decision two months ago was something very right and that I'm still a long way more to where I wish to be. And I still surprise myself with things I do when I don't think too much about it. Hmm.


3. Quality of life is determined by how you deal with your 
moments, not which moments happen and which don't.
To encounter an undesirable situation and work with it willingly is the mark of a wise and happy person.
http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/9-mind-blowing-epiphanies-that-turned-my-world-upside-down/#ApDkAJzUs7vSoxdJ.99 


Check out this article is you're free. Lovely weekend, amigos! :D

You're the reason behind those smiles.

Howdy amigos. What better ways to welcome the weekend than doing something meaningful away from your thick heavy books and stressful timetable. Went for can-washing yesterday right after lecture with the whole gang from the class. Although it was raining, nobody complained but worked so diligently trying to get the work done as swiftly as possible. It's such an amazing feeling to obtain such contentment from doing something as simple as washing cans with your fellow friends in the cold drizzle. After that, attended a super last minute potluck party at the twin's apartment. Though we had simple, not-so-fancy food and take-away's but everybody enjoyed with endless joy in the company of awesome people. Playing Mafia was probably the biggest mistake for some of them especially Jordan. Haha face problem betul the whole night.

Today, woke up earlier than usual for the Educating children in Rural Areas (E.RA) Project in Pahang. It was an initiative by one of the groups in LEAD Programme in collaboration with the Reading Bus organisation. I've always wanted to do this, going to the rural areas, reaching out in whatever ways I could to help the aborigines. As you would've imagined it to be, twas a dismal sight with shortages in so many aspects. The first thing I saw when I stepped out of the four-wheel-drive was a pair of miniature slippers on the uneven yellow soil. I broke into a crooked smile before entering the hall where the children were. There were about 50 to 60 of them and they looked so innocent and ignorant of the lives they have yet to know exist if they would only reach their hands out to it. Or if they only knew it existed. It's 'heavy' to imagine myself being in their shoes and imagine not being who I am and where I am right now.

So we started off with a short ice-breaker. Then, it was free reading session. The kids were allowed to come up to the shelf and pick whatever books they like. You can clearly see there was a relatively big gap between the ones who are able to follow and the younger ones who are merely pushed by the current. Next, we distributed the new books on 'Bugs' and narrated it to them and they repeated after us. I never taught I would ever had the chance to do this, seriously. I went around trying to converse with them but obviously, their strength is in the Malay language. So I took a different approach and we did manage to understand each other. I saw their smiles when I high-fived them. Irreplaceable. And Pastor Charlie was really awesome in teaching the kids and getting them to be responsive and interactive. He shared a little about himself in the car, he's been doing this for 30 years now. It's just amazing.

It's been a really eye-opening experience. What I've realised and share would never be the same if you do not live it yourself for real. One thing for sure is that, if we have never seen something, we wouldn't have the desire for it. If you do not open yourself to the crazy amount of opportunities out there, you wouldn't know what suits you best or in the first place, what you would even have to ponder upon. It's pointless to be afraid, all you have to keep in mind is the precautions in case things go bad, which should be nothing surprising. I appreciate the love and care from everyone around me and I love you too very much.

Keep trying unless you're completely paralysed! Good day. :D

Five peas for peace.

It's been an enjoyable week. Getting busier with classes and hanging out with AIESECers whenever there's break. I wish I joined AIESEC earlier though 'cause there's just so much to discover and so many inspiring people with priceless stories to be heard from. Now I get how these people bond together so closely in such short period of time. It is because they shared the same feelings and went through the same intensity of transformation that made them feel like they have grown to become better people with each other's support.

This past few days, I've come to realise that time is really not a factor in determining how well you know a person. You can know a person for a day and feel like you've known him or her for years because you share so much in common with them. It makes you feel like there's finally someone whom you don't have to explain every bit of yourself to. I believe I've found a really important friend, mentor and companion who may or may not stay around in my life for a long time. Nevertheless, it's been a great pleasure knowing him and hopefully no peas or ducks are harmed during the process. LOL.

I guess things are pretty much back to normal now. Went out for dinner together with family and grandparents today for the first time after the incident. The lil' one is officially free from whatever food-restraining order by the queen. It's just great, to be with the people you love and care the most and enjoy awesome food. Have a joy-filled and wonderfully blessed week ahead, amigos. It's beautiful if you just see it with the right mind. Peace, love and understanding y'll. :)

This is rare. I'm actually excited that it's Monday tomorrow and I have to go to uni! :D

Only you could see

The emptiness I feel

When you're with me

Only You - Ellie Goulding

Halcyon!!! :)

Rainbow after the rain.

My eye lids are like the black clouds, heavy with load but I want to remember today. As usual, I woke up to the melody of Boston and fall back for ten minutes. Wasn't expecting much out of today, was contemplating to be a good or bad student. It's like I didn't have anything to look forward to until Friday. Thankfully I did the right thing and stayed till the end. If it was me last time, I would have thought of the activities as lame and a mere waste of time but I actually thought it was quite enjoyable and was a good opportunity to get to know my potential classmates. What harm could it cause me anyway.

So what happened was I showed them how physically tough I could be. Haha I don't know, twas fun just fooling around and laughing uncontrollably like that. That three hours were joyfully spent with playing Charades, the running while acting game, drinking 1.5 litres of diluted apple cider vinegar and jumping with balloons between our legs and under our armpits. The most surprising thing was our group won first prize. The evening got better when I met up with a few former classmates in foundation and had a great sharing session with the elegant Farah Yunos. Thank you so much for the beautiful bracelet, it was a lovely surprise and very thoughtful gift, by the lake :D. Before that, I dropped my just-collected ID card and a lady came searching for me in the pc lab. Thank goodness.

It was a blessed day for me indeed. LLDS this Friday, have not packed a single thing. Long day ahead. Good day amigos!

Random photos in the cam. Sorry if it hurts ;P

Sometimes you only need one minute to make a change.

Halcyon

First day of orientation. I thought it was super duper boring. Maybe I was too tired that I slept off during the briefing. I honestly didn't mean it as I wouldn't like it too if people were to fall asleep when I'm speaking. And I was sitting beside a senior who's busy with her iPad. Anyways, it's great seeing all those familiar faces again. Some of them changed their appearance a little, getting prettier and more ladylike. I enjoyed and really appreciate those who actually came up and said hi to me and we had a lil' chat. It's sad to see some who perhaps are comfortable enough staying within their own clique so they actually gave that I-didn't-see-you-there look and turned away when I looked directly at them and threw a couple of smiles. I felt like I was an alien with huge external eyeballs or something. So weird. The lecturers looked quite intimidating though, and there's darn many rules to abide to. It's gonna be awesome.

We all know that anything could happen, we just don't think about it that often. Hence, do what you think is important to you. Don't waste time on people who don't appreciate and love you back. Open up your heart and allow the right people in. It's okay if intruders get in cause one day, they'll come to realise that they don't have a nest to take cover it when the cold harsh wind or the hot blazing fire comes washing the don't-matters away. "It's not what you've lost but what you find."

Often I lie wide awake, think of things

I can make but I don't seem to have

The parts to build them

Human - Ellie Goulding

Drunk after twelve.

Hello there. It's been a great weekend and a blissful Monday thanks to the West Malaysia. The big one is in Kuching now for work. So awesome the food there, I can imagine him wohlapping all the goodness there. So the usual four of us went on a day out shopping. We really let ourselves go, sort of like pampering ourselves a little and to welcome new beginnings. Bought some 'CNY clothes', (but we always end up wearing them before the festive days), finally got a taste of what the mille crepe cake out there tastes like (and yup I've got to work on mine, like way a lot), had Snowflake cause the craving was too overwhelming and had the very delicious Ipoh Hor Fun at Jalan Gasing before heading for home sweet home. I couldn't remember but I think I slipped to Slumberland that night with a permanent smile carved on my face.

Four more days. I'm counting down on the days and I am still as clueless as I ever was. We all know those times when we kept going on thinking about something but never seemed to get to the answer or at least, a conclusion. So you just let it go and fall to sleep cause you're out of zing for the night. It's kinda frustrating waking up to a few consecutive mornings with the same episode of your thoughts from the day before. But it's all right, it always does get better. 'Cause you know from experience, that after some time, it'll all fade away and look like a petty thing among all the other bigger stuffs in your life at the moment. I honestly don't know what am I even mentioning about. I think it's a syndrome I'm having.

Alrighty, time for bed. Oh yea, somebody said that eating cheese right before bed gives you sweet dreams. Preferably cheddar lah kay. So yup, cheese up! :)

Ellie Goulding - Bright Lights ♥

J'adore macarons!

Bonjour amis. Just gonna share some delicious snaps and I'm heading off to another dimension. So twas a beautiful Thursday. Went to Eng Ann to get some stuffs and headed back and got to work. Took me about six hours 'cause I was being really really cautious, didn't want to screw up (there's so much almond in it!). And my patience and prayers paid off well at the end with really cute, crunchy yet chewy babies. Satisfied and happy I was although my entire back and legs ached like mad due to all the hunching-overs in front of the oven. Twas magic, and me created it. :D.

And yesterday, had a good run while enjoying the beautiful shapes and patterns formed by the clouds. There's just something about the sky that makes me feel like everything else around me is taken away for a while and all I had to do is open my eyes wide and be amazed. I can't tell how but I've learnt quite a few things from it, nature. Sometimes, it pops up thoughts you don't expect. I don't know if it's normal or anything but I don't think it's at all crazy to have debates and small talks with yourself. But I always know that someone is listening. He's there and he loves me. 

And ouh, I had a dream of a baby yesterday. A really cute and smart one. I was cuddling him in my arms and he was like touching my face and playing with my ear? His super tiny fingers, they are so delicate and ticklish. Twas such a happy occasion and I almost tear up looking at his pure joy-filled smiles. I know it's different from the usual but I don't think it's weird.

I think it's crazy good. Nights. :).

The lil' one made those smilies. 

I thought the left one is scary-looking. Haha.

I need some Kirsch!

Hello amigos, how's it going. It's been raining a lot these few days, making it so breezy and cooling. Me love it, although it kinda made me take more trips to the loo but that's okay. Actually, no not quite. Haha.

I feel like I want to just bake, bake, bake. Found so many good recipes from a favourite Singaporean blogger and some others. I have about a month left until the 'war' resumes. Time's flying swifter than I thought. Gotta get some ingredients and try out the birthday surprise I'm making her. I think I've found the right recipe. Hehe.

It's a short post. Need to run again. Good day y'll! :)

Broken Brights

Happy Raya. Happy Lemang. Happy Rendang. Happy Ketupat. I love the festive season. Visited dad's friend and tasted one of the best authentic Malay cuisine I've known. Yumyumm. And after that, lil' one and I tagged along god-uncle and family to KLCC for the Popular Bookfest. Packed. Super duper crowded. Everywhere you turn, you see a face or the back of it, with or without hair right in front of yours. But twas enjoyable. So so sooo many books. And so darn cheap. Like I said, too many options kills the brain. However, not that hard this time with the ruthless one by my side. Gosh, one thing he says and you could voluntarily crush your fancy dreams and wants to powder in your very own hands. Haha. We also did a 'quick browse' through the stationery and IT section. I spent most of the time at the kids and crafts area as always. Children, you have no idea how lucky you are. NO. Okay, then, we had dinner and walked around while enjoying the night view around the lake. Twas breathtaking. Too bad I didn't have Noelle with me. Anyhow, I had a great day today. I hope the same for everyone, everyday, everywhere. Goodnight. Lots of peace, love and understanding . :).

Take me home

Where them broken brights

Are shining down

Make me feel alright

Broken Brights - Angus Stone

I never imagined you dead.

Went for the assessment yesterday. Twas kinda fun. Started off with some dances and then we had to sit in a circle. The situation was kinda tensed really because there were so many unfamiliar faces observing us. And we had to present about stuff that I honestly wouldn't give a crap about if not because of someone some time ago. There wasn't much crowd today, only got to meet a few fellows including a cheerleader. And then, the interview. I was the last to go which made me quite nervous and shivery as the temperature in the room started to decline. I went into the other room, saw their faces, didn't think much, only recognised them as males. They introduced themselves and when they asked me to do the same, I laughed a lil' too loudly and in a cynical way. Gosh what nervousness does to me. It was the exact same thing that happened during the degree interview. I clearly remembered laughing inappropriately throughout the whole 'chatting' session. In my mind, I was singing "Ooh you're so dead, LKY." But the right-hand-side dude kept yawning and I got a lil' distracted, fumbling at every word I had to say. The questions got weirder from one to another, from "Why pharmacy?" to "Sell this ashtray to me, but I don't smoke." Good experience indeed. Hope to receive good news these few days to come. *cross fingers*

Staying up late again. This is so unhealthy. Alrighty, photos of le bakes, mi amigos and ciao.

I find baking fascinating for some reasons.

One: Transformation.

 It amuses me how a little heat could do such magic tricks.

I ain't no baker, I'm a magician. ;)

Sometimes the wrong choices bring us to the right places.

I think I like today, I think it's good.

Howdyyy. Gosh, it's been so long, hasn't it. Glad my lappy's back from the hospital after three whole weeks but I kinda got rusty. Typing like a tortoise. And new software. Good thing I backup-ed everything so I didn't have to redownload everything but still, I messed up stuffs. Oh well. Things like this, you'll never know when it'll strike you. It was fine all the while but suddenly that Sunday morning I wanted to use it but it refused to start. Numbers and codes were all I saw on the black screen for hours. Bummer. Guess me and tech gadgets can never be friends. :)

So two weeks ago, god uncle rang up and the next day at 6am, all of us were all packed and headed for Kuala Gandah, Pahang. We're seriously used to this already. The main attraction there was the elephants. It's opened free to the public and we got to feed, ride and bathe with the elephants. What a joy. But we didn't get ourselves wet though, for a very good reason; the elephant peed and pooped into the very same river you're splashing and soaking in. Besides that, we also went to the nearby Deer Park. Daymmm this was  the highlight I swear. I got to feed the deers and rabbits, cuddle a baby civet or musang and above all, carried a snake on my shoulders. I honestly didn't feel anything, I thought it was really cool. These experiences have made me realised that there are too many things out there that I've not explored and tried. Hope I'll have the chance to do as many crazy stuffs as I can before I get old and fragile and maybe senile. Haha.

The week before, another unexpected storm hit the family but thank god, this time was just a warning sign. You know, when family gets into trouble, the best support they could get is from family. I saw the tension and everything but I don't know. I guess I'm still too naive for the real deal. Sometimes people are funny, it looks like A to your eyes but hears like B and then the truth, C starts to surface from beneath, but there's another truth, D. In the end, nothing is resolved cause it goes nowhere. I used to shove aside matters that I dislike, unhappy subjects, arguments. Ignoring like it was just a bad play and wake up to a normal day. The scariest part is, it's not like I don't know anything, I knew everything. And in my dreams, I saw the beautiful side of it. Everything just plays in front of me and it all has a different ending. Some are just replays but some, they're remakes. Weird I know.

Alright it's getting late. Shall hit the sack and rock tomorrow's whatever I'm going for. Lol. Haha today I baked some raisin rolls and wholemeal loaf. Dad said I could open a bakery (flutters) but I will go bankrupt in no time looking at the amount of raisins I used. I ain't no business minded person. Never was. And my future bakery, I'll name it 'Family Bakery'. Tata :D.

The many beautiful creatures I met.

Awesomeness.

Do not let them die.

Ex-MGSians gathering.

Windmill & Neway. ♥

Broken Bottles Form A Star

I've been dreading to blog cause I know, once I'm at this page, my mind will go blank and my fingers will start dancing over these squarish, alphabet-labelled thingy with the intention of baring my heart and backfiring the initial plan made by Mr. Mind. It happens to others too I'm sure, but I don't know, I don't feel comfortable typing out every single thing that I'm going through here.

It's about a month now I'm enjoying my break and homework-free lifestyle. And I've got to say, having spent so much time alone at home, you really can't help it but to feel lonely and isolated. It's like you could even hear the pumping sound of your own breathing, the pounding of your blood when it hits the wall of your heart and veins and the voice of your mind speaking out every time it has an opinion. It really makes you think and more substantially, hear what YOU are saying.

I just realised I've been blogging for years, with the same link address. Back then, the purpose was simple; to let people whom you want them to 'stalk' you know what are your interests and personalities like. Slowly as I 'mature', I began to complain, crap, gossip, and emo my heart out here. So unhealthy. I thought of stopping. Then I thought, maybe there's still someone out there who is still following up on me. I don't know, maybe the future me? It's silly but a tinge of false hope won't hurt, will it. Certain things are meant to be the same for a long long time. There's no point trying to meddle with it. It is written with ink, can't be erased.

Perhaps years from now I'll look back and laugh at myself. I definitely will haha. Happy midweek =). 

Did some baking. And stacking. :)

My new hobby. 

Breathe

13 hours more and we're officially free. Yup, everybody's counting down. These few days have been a total change of lifestyle. Can't wait to read this awesome super red book :). Yea I bought it because it's red and it's JP. 

Still getting used to this.

"I come to love, not war. So let Me in."

Mi corazon

Haywire. 'Napped' at 4.30pm and woke up at 11pm. And now I can't go back to sleep. The past few days, everyone's working extremely hard for good grades and whatever other reasons that forced us to bury our heads in books. In the process, you could hear the sound of some wanting to give up so badly, some crying silently inside, struggling within themselves but still tried to portray a calm, comforting smile to others. We are all in this together yet we are fighting individual battles of our own. It's hard to see and know something but not being able to do anything to make it better.

I choose to ignore, always. I choose to let people be disappointed, but hope that they'll get back up stronger and find a better person in their lives. There are times I feel like getting so wasted, just so I can use it as an innocent excuse to do something I've been suppressing for so long. It may not worth a thing but not everything needs a reason to do, does it. We all know that feeling where you need that little push to start the move. Sadly, we don't get it often cause people don't read minds. 

Two more weeks and we'll take a long break. May it be a great one. I pray that everyone continues persevering and not give up. Think of this as your last chance to redeem yourself and do your best. There's no point crying and shaking and regretting. There's just not much time left. Yosh!

Am I crazy or am I blind

Someone told me that I'm out of my mind

Killing shots

A crazy week it was. Class tests, Malaysian Studies exam, first part of English finals. I don't usually get headache but thank god it came after everything was over. Three hours of nap and I feel worse. I could barely move and my eyes kept shutting every time I tried to open them. Can't wait for the long long break.

Today is special. Exactly one year it has been. I've never thought that we would ever set eyes onto each other or had the chance to even be together, but I guess it's all fate. This one year, I've got to admit that I was rough, I wasn't careful in my conducts and I broke you once. You have no idea what it cost me to see you broken by someone else when I'm not looking, in mere split second. Nevertheless, you were kind and forgiving, looking past the past with such generous personality. I hope we could go on together for more years to come as a team, for life. :)

It's amazing how people are. One moment you think they're nice and such good companies and the next, you kinda disagree with their behaviours and whatnot. We change super swiftly like the direction of the wind, don't we. There are times when we hope for something different, something to change, someone to realise, someone to care and sometimes, the total opposite. When it does happen right in front of your eyes, it's too surreal you can't swallow it. It's like it's such bad timing you're almost like disgusted by it.

I don't know what's my point but yea, people change. No matter how far you've left your past behind and move on a better, happier person, it will somehow still come back at times when you're most vulnerable. It's easier living with something you've never tried before than the opposite cause when you know how it feels like, you'll always long for more. Then again, life's too short to hold back and not take risks. Let's enjoy life and not worry too much of the consequences, shall we. :)

Lost in Translation

Today can be the worst day of my life as a student but I'm not gonna think that way. ETP today was great, we had more fun going around playing games and watching the dramas and video presentations than explaining to passers-by about the disease we're promoting. And bought lots of stuffs for charity. Twas amazing. The LAST project for FIS. Hallelujah. Oh yea, my first time playing dart and I hit the bull's eye! :D

And then, the interview. Wanted to cry halfway seriously. What kind of questions.. Okay I admit I wasn't prepared, my bad. And when I told her, she just laughed and said it's okay, I did my best. That made me even.. sigh oh well. So glad it's over. Don't have to worry about it like the others whose turn is tomorrow or on Friday.

I can't believe I played poker with UNO cards before it like nothing. Craps I do at the wrong time. Anyways, today I saw a different side of some people. It's kinda comforting to know that humanity still exists in those who look so cold and insensitive. I feel bad for you but it's not in my power to do anything about it. I'm just an outsider now. I'm glad it's over. Or maybe not start at all.

War time amigos :) 

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Howdy. I've been napping so much that my brain is a mess now. Oh well, I'm foreseeing late nights and last minute studying for the next one month or so. Final's up in June. After that, I'm free for about three months. Hallelujah. Can't wait for the long break.

One more month left and we're still busy with projects and assignments. And for the ones planning to study Pharmacy, we have the essay writing thingy and interview soon, like this week and next week. I don't know what I'm gonna answer them seriously. I can't even concentrate on one thing right now.

I didn't expect this to come back and grow inside me again. It's like a tumour, perhaps it's always been there, been a part of me all this while, me feeding it like it's the most natural thing to do till it's starting to take over my body and now, my mind. I've always known what's the cause, hormones. You always do this to me. Why can't we be friends hmm? Lol crazy.

It's so awesome y'know, school. You get hungry all the time but eat at the same place so often. It's always there, the same thing day after day. You tell yourself it's because of the limited options but deep down, you know it's not that. You choose to go to that same place every day. Yea you go around trying new stuffs every now and then but somehow, you still come back to the same spot. Nights. :)

I can't make sense of what I'm saying too. Teehee.