You in my dream again

Two downed, two more to go. There's quite a lot more to stuff into my brain but my mind is just too distracted to do that. Recently, there's been things that kind of surprised me. It's really disappointing. I mean, it's coming to the end already, why can't things just remain pretty for a lil' more. That way, I'll continue having this good, pleasant memories of them. Now, it's destroyed, it's hard to say this but it's the truth.

Just one week, and you have changed so much. Now I see how badly you do when you lose your glasses. But I'll understand and I'll just look past it. It's not the right time to be thinking of this anyway. And the other, your every act spells selfish, weak and insensitive. I feel sick just typing this, I don't want to go on. I don't like speaking the bad sides of people but these people are not typical acquaintances. But I know my position in this, I have no right to speak as loud as the others. But my eyes are clear and can't be fooled. It's coming to an end, like I said. Perhaps I should go on being silent to protect this pretty lie.

Just recently, I was reminded of a very important habit that we often neglect being so caught up with our own lives and problems, that is to never judge a book by its cover. A person who's quiet or harsh could have a thousand and one problems behind their strong exteriors. They might be wanting to hide something or to see if you're concerned enough to notice and make the first move. It's tiny things like this that determines how close you are in connecting with a person. It's funny how all those happy moments just wipe out of your head for a while when you start to have bad ones. I'm glad I have met true, real supporting friends though who is such a blessing from Him.

Well, all these stuffs.. I am a real sensitive I know. Lol I guess the stress level has gone too low that my mind has become too occupied. And the diarrhoea, flu, stomachache and dizziness. The moon was so round and bright just a few days back and now, the strong winds and storms are coming to accompany us tonight. May the force be with us, as what Kam said. All the best for the remaining days, amigos. :)

Suddenly I have this feeling,

Tasting copper in my mouth

Copper Down - The Boy Who Trapped the Sun

Mi corazon

Haywire. 'Napped' at 4.30pm and woke up at 11pm. And now I can't go back to sleep. The past few days, everyone's working extremely hard for good grades and whatever other reasons that forced us to bury our heads in books. In the process, you could hear the sound of some wanting to give up so badly, some crying silently inside, struggling within themselves but still tried to portray a calm, comforting smile to others. We are all in this together yet we are fighting individual battles of our own. It's hard to see and know something but not being able to do anything to make it better.

I choose to ignore, always. I choose to let people be disappointed, but hope that they'll get back up stronger and find a better person in their lives. There are times I feel like getting so wasted, just so I can use it as an innocent excuse to do something I've been suppressing for so long. It may not worth a thing but not everything needs a reason to do, does it. We all know that feeling where you need that little push to start the move. Sadly, we don't get it often cause people don't read minds. 

Two more weeks and we'll take a long break. May it be a great one. I pray that everyone continues persevering and not give up. Think of this as your last chance to redeem yourself and do your best. There's no point crying and shaking and regretting. There's just not much time left. Yosh!

Am I crazy or am I blind

Someone told me that I'm out of my mind

Aurum

They say everything happens for a reason. What happened today is going to be an unforgettable one. It's so silly. I didn't know why I acted like that. It's like I didn't care one inch about everything and everyone around me and I just did it, so publicly. And I didn't stop there, I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. It went on for a while till home. And then, it went on hysterical mode. Crap. One small thing led to another and the deepest, darkest one.

I feel bad. But grateful.

Someone Told Me - Jake Bugg