Mi corazon

Haywire. 'Napped' at 4.30pm and woke up at 11pm. And now I can't go back to sleep. The past few days, everyone's working extremely hard for good grades and whatever other reasons that forced us to bury our heads in books. In the process, you could hear the sound of some wanting to give up so badly, some crying silently inside, struggling within themselves but still tried to portray a calm, comforting smile to others. We are all in this together yet we are fighting individual battles of our own. It's hard to see and know something but not being able to do anything to make it better.

I choose to ignore, always. I choose to let people be disappointed, but hope that they'll get back up stronger and find a better person in their lives. There are times I feel like getting so wasted, just so I can use it as an innocent excuse to do something I've been suppressing for so long. It may not worth a thing but not everything needs a reason to do, does it. We all know that feeling where you need that little push to start the move. Sadly, we don't get it often cause people don't read minds. 

Two more weeks and we'll take a long break. May it be a great one. I pray that everyone continues persevering and not give up. Think of this as your last chance to redeem yourself and do your best. There's no point crying and shaking and regretting. There's just not much time left. Yosh!

Am I crazy or am I blind

Someone told me that I'm out of my mind

Aurum

They say everything happens for a reason. What happened today is going to be an unforgettable one. It's so silly. I didn't know why I acted like that. It's like I didn't care one inch about everything and everyone around me and I just did it, so publicly. And I didn't stop there, I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. It went on for a while till home. And then, it went on hysterical mode. Crap. One small thing led to another and the deepest, darkest one.

I feel bad. But grateful.

Someone Told Me - Jake Bugg

Killing shots

A crazy week it was. Class tests, Malaysian Studies exam, first part of English finals. I don't usually get headache but thank god it came after everything was over. Three hours of nap and I feel worse. I could barely move and my eyes kept shutting every time I tried to open them. Can't wait for the long long break.

Today is special. Exactly one year it has been. I've never thought that we would ever set eyes onto each other or had the chance to even be together, but I guess it's all fate. This one year, I've got to admit that I was rough, I wasn't careful in my conducts and I broke you once. You have no idea what it cost me to see you broken by someone else when I'm not looking, in mere split second. Nevertheless, you were kind and forgiving, looking past the past with such generous personality. I hope we could go on together for more years to come as a team, for life. :)

It's amazing how people are. One moment you think they're nice and such good companies and the next, you kinda disagree with their behaviours and whatnot. We change super swiftly like the direction of the wind, don't we. There are times when we hope for something different, something to change, someone to realise, someone to care and sometimes, the total opposite. When it does happen right in front of your eyes, it's too surreal you can't swallow it. It's like it's such bad timing you're almost like disgusted by it.

I don't know what's my point but yea, people change. No matter how far you've left your past behind and move on a better, happier person, it will somehow still come back at times when you're most vulnerable. It's easier living with something you've never tried before than the opposite cause when you know how it feels like, you'll always long for more. Then again, life's too short to hold back and not take risks. Let's enjoy life and not worry too much of the consequences, shall we. :)