An Unforgettable Nightmare.

Hello, amigos. First of all, I just wanna say that I am so very grateful to God that I am still breathing and all well right now. And even more thankful that my family is too. I still remember that I said to embrace this month with smiles and happy handshakes. That has not changed one bit. I just feel really really blessed and grateful that I still have my deeply loved ones with me. I thank Him for everything, for sparing our lives. No, more than that. He gave us all another chance to live.

I kept thinking and thinking, and I don't know if I should let it out here. Honestly, I still don't know. 'Cause really, it's traumatising and still creeps me to the bone every time I think about it. But, somehow I feel it's important that my friends know and realise the importance of what they have right now. I think I'm gonna just give a really brief account of the incident.

So it was a Saturday night, we were on our way home from Jusco Bukit Raja around midnight. After leaving the roundabout, cutting into the left lane, then wanting to cut into the right. Dad signalled for quite some time already, double checking the rear-view mirror before cutting out. And all of the sudden, a car sped like a mad bull from behind and hit our Myvi. Our car lost control and skidded to the left, made a few spins and flips before landing super hard on its roof, the car facing in the opposite direction.

Thank god, thank god I made it out the car and dad and mom too. But I heard mom shouting the lil' one's name as he was nowhere to be found. And when I turned, he was on the other side of the road. Thank god no car went over him or any shitass crap like that. He was bleeding so much on his head. Mom kept pressing his head and I kept shouting his name to bring him to consciousness. Luckily a really kind hearted Indian couple on the other side of the traffic offered to give us a lift to the hospital. And another group of Chinese youngsters too. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

The disappointment and frustration struck when we reached Hospital A and the nurses asked us to go away as they don't have any brain specialist. I was like, come on la.. They even stopped dad who was carrying lil' one at the ER entrance and said, 'Tengok dulu, tengok dulu..' with one hand on the hip like we're talking about selling fish or chicken. Seriously heartless piece of cold meat. But dad kept asking them to help stop the bleeding first because lil' one was losing so much blood he was shivering like a fierce fish out of water. Fortunately, the same super nice souls actually waited and were more than willing to rush us to another hospital as Hospital A doesn't provide ambulance service.

From there, it was a long long night. ICU for one day. Thankfully, everything's all right now. He's recovering fast. Mom's eye is healing too. Our body aches are subsiding pretty swiftly with the usage of the counterpain like body lotion. Really, if we're not lucky, I don't know what luck is. And very heavily blessed too. I remembered I was completely conscious during the 'Flying Coaster ride', all I thought was 'Die lah.' and before the landing, 'God, please save us all. I beg you please.' The car's condition.. It's hopeless. A nurse who saw the car said that most probably the occupants were no go.

I couldn't thank enough to those who have helped directly and indirectly. May you be blessed in abundance in so many ways. I guess that's all I can say for now. Appreciate what you have and every moment spent. And, be safe on the road. Good day, dear amigos.

J'adore macarons!

Bonjour amis. Just gonna share some delicious snaps and I'm heading off to another dimension. So twas a beautiful Thursday. Went to Eng Ann to get some stuffs and headed back and got to work. Took me about six hours 'cause I was being really really cautious, didn't want to screw up (there's so much almond in it!). And my patience and prayers paid off well at the end with really cute, crunchy yet chewy babies. Satisfied and happy I was although my entire back and legs ached like mad due to all the hunching-overs in front of the oven. Twas magic, and me created it. :D.

And yesterday, had a good run while enjoying the beautiful shapes and patterns formed by the clouds. There's just something about the sky that makes me feel like everything else around me is taken away for a while and all I had to do is open my eyes wide and be amazed. I can't tell how but I've learnt quite a few things from it, nature. Sometimes, it pops up thoughts you don't expect. I don't know if it's normal or anything but I don't think it's at all crazy to have debates and small talks with yourself. But I always know that someone is listening. He's there and he loves me. 

And ouh, I had a dream of a baby yesterday. A really cute and smart one. I was cuddling him in my arms and he was like touching my face and playing with my ear? His super tiny fingers, they are so delicate and ticklish. Twas such a happy occasion and I almost tear up looking at his pure joy-filled smiles. I know it's different from the usual but I don't think it's weird.

I think it's crazy good. Nights. :).

The lil' one made those smilies. 

I thought the left one is scary-looking. Haha.

Cause we were young then

It's a Saturday already..): Just when you're at the most comfortable time of your life, reality smacks right into your face like rotten banana peel. I feel guilty for not revising anything and print and do the tutorials uploaded as our homework. Going back to uni on Monday, I'm gonna feel so much worse for sure when I see the others getting even more ahead of me and I, left floating alone in the middle of the sea.

Yesterday, I had a really weird and scary dream. It happened in Taylor's. Twas a cold rainy day and I needed to go to the toilet so badly and there's only ONE toilet in the entire gigantic uni. When I opened the door, it was pitch-dark, very abandoned-like and the walls were as if decorated with spider webs so thick you can't even recognise the intial background colour. Desperately, I searched for the switch and managed to lit one light, went into the unlockable cubicle and next was the most horrifying incident. Extremely fierce black clouds, like hurricane came blowing off everything, all the cubicle doors and sinks. Instinctively, I kept praying and praying but nothing happened. The clump of black clouds then stayed afloat in front of me and I sweared, 'I promise, I won't do it, I won't screw up anything anymore.'

So much courage, sacrifices and effort put into this
I will not spoil it just like that
Not again
Will not wish on your big day
Cause that'll be like suicide and homicide
All over again
I don't know

Till fate strikes us again, see you.