Veinte

Hi amigos. How's it going. It feels so good to finally get to catch a breath even if it's for a while. The past few days, got to spend time a bit with the medicine peeps before they go on their break. Somehow, it's kinda envious seeing how they could bond so closely, such strong togetherness. :)

Things been crazy but great, keeps us alive. So much has changed, it's only going to go in this direction. I hope it's a starry night every time I shut my eyes thinking of all the beautiful shinies that made it happen, from the very beginning of time. Some things stay with you for a very long time: they are words that you feel for very deeply at the particular moment. It shapes you from that very second.

Happy March :).

The Great Escape

I don't know how this would turn out to be.

 But I am just going to give it a valiant go.

 Not gonna think how it's going to change me or my life as a whole.

 Just have to have faith that it'll bring me to somewhere right.

 An experience that I want to have and give up things for.

 May it show in me and the things I say and do.

 No regrets, only motivation all the way through.
(This snap reminds me of a friend's photo taken in Phuket)

 I can do this. For I have you and the glowing fire in this lil' body.

"If you think sunshine brings you happiness, then you haven't danced in the rain."

Good day! :)

Gemini

Got on a crazy huge ship at Penang Island and off we sailed. Away from the structured-landscaped view. Away from people, literally. One of the best travelling experience so far. Thanks to my dear parents for always giving us the best lifetime experience and momentous moments like this. Got the chance to get to the shore of Phuket and Krabi as well by tendering boats, and did some sightseeing at the town. Beautiful people, amazing food, lovely tour guide, great weather, breathtaking sceneries, awesome companies. Twas perfect.

Being 'stranded' in the middle of the deep sea, not having a clue of where you are and what to do if anything were to go wrong, twas just amazing. There's no separation of the sky and the sea. The horizon is endless. You turn around 360 degrees and all you see is the same serene, soothing scenery. But sometimes, a lil' change is needed. I never knew it could be so uplifting to see the mountain-like dark patches appearing above the skyline. That's when I realised, no one could ever live alone.

If you compare yourself in the day and at night, you wouldn't see much of a difference in the way you live, your lifestyle, the people you meet, the things you do and such. It's pretty much consistent and in the 'safe' zone. I met this guy, Matt, who was our tour guide in Krabi. He has knowledge and experience as vast as you can imagine. Was a former Thai boxer, he met people from all around the world. One awesome guy I'd like to meet again.

The Gala Night taught me how diversity could bring people closer and not the presumed opposite. People from Philippines, China, Nepal, India, Finland, Sweden and Vietnam running that one ship. That's something there. Sometimes, we get too comfy in the same environment we overlook things. We assume and demand for our rights that we forget to be considerate and sensitive of other's needs. It's only human, ain't it. Think again. And also, extreme joy or sorrow brings the most kilos. Yeap. Oh well, as long as there's

..peace, love and understanding. :)

Five peas for peace.

It's been an enjoyable week. Getting busier with classes and hanging out with AIESECers whenever there's break. I wish I joined AIESEC earlier though 'cause there's just so much to discover and so many inspiring people with priceless stories to be heard from. Now I get how these people bond together so closely in such short period of time. It is because they shared the same feelings and went through the same intensity of transformation that made them feel like they have grown to become better people with each other's support.

This past few days, I've come to realise that time is really not a factor in determining how well you know a person. You can know a person for a day and feel like you've known him or her for years because you share so much in common with them. It makes you feel like there's finally someone whom you don't have to explain every bit of yourself to. I believe I've found a really important friend, mentor and companion who may or may not stay around in my life for a long time. Nevertheless, it's been a great pleasure knowing him and hopefully no peas or ducks are harmed during the process. LOL.

I guess things are pretty much back to normal now. Went out for dinner together with family and grandparents today for the first time after the incident. The lil' one is officially free from whatever food-restraining order by the queen. It's just great, to be with the people you love and care the most and enjoy awesome food. Have a joy-filled and wonderfully blessed week ahead, amigos. It's beautiful if you just see it with the right mind. Peace, love and understanding y'll. :)

This is rare. I'm actually excited that it's Monday tomorrow and I have to go to uni! :D

Only you could see

The emptiness I feel

When you're with me

Only You - Ellie Goulding

Halcyon!!! :)

Drunk after twelve.

Hello there. It's been a great weekend and a blissful Monday thanks to the West Malaysia. The big one is in Kuching now for work. So awesome the food there, I can imagine him wohlapping all the goodness there. So the usual four of us went on a day out shopping. We really let ourselves go, sort of like pampering ourselves a little and to welcome new beginnings. Bought some 'CNY clothes', (but we always end up wearing them before the festive days), finally got a taste of what the mille crepe cake out there tastes like (and yup I've got to work on mine, like way a lot), had Snowflake cause the craving was too overwhelming and had the very delicious Ipoh Hor Fun at Jalan Gasing before heading for home sweet home. I couldn't remember but I think I slipped to Slumberland that night with a permanent smile carved on my face.

Four more days. I'm counting down on the days and I am still as clueless as I ever was. We all know those times when we kept going on thinking about something but never seemed to get to the answer or at least, a conclusion. So you just let it go and fall to sleep cause you're out of zing for the night. It's kinda frustrating waking up to a few consecutive mornings with the same episode of your thoughts from the day before. But it's all right, it always does get better. 'Cause you know from experience, that after some time, it'll all fade away and look like a petty thing among all the other bigger stuffs in your life at the moment. I honestly don't know what am I even mentioning about. I think it's a syndrome I'm having.

Alrighty, time for bed. Oh yea, somebody said that eating cheese right before bed gives you sweet dreams. Preferably cheddar lah kay. So yup, cheese up! :)

Ellie Goulding - Bright Lights ♥

An Unforgettable Nightmare.

Hello, amigos. First of all, I just wanna say that I am so very grateful to God that I am still breathing and all well right now. And even more thankful that my family is too. I still remember that I said to embrace this month with smiles and happy handshakes. That has not changed one bit. I just feel really really blessed and grateful that I still have my deeply loved ones with me. I thank Him for everything, for sparing our lives. No, more than that. He gave us all another chance to live.

I kept thinking and thinking, and I don't know if I should let it out here. Honestly, I still don't know. 'Cause really, it's traumatising and still creeps me to the bone every time I think about it. But, somehow I feel it's important that my friends know and realise the importance of what they have right now. I think I'm gonna just give a really brief account of the incident.

So it was a Saturday night, we were on our way home from Jusco Bukit Raja around midnight. After leaving the roundabout, cutting into the left lane, then wanting to cut into the right. Dad signalled for quite some time already, double checking the rear-view mirror before cutting out. And all of the sudden, a car sped like a mad bull from behind and hit our Myvi. Our car lost control and skidded to the left, made a few spins and flips before landing super hard on its roof, the car facing in the opposite direction.

Thank god, thank god I made it out the car and dad and mom too. But I heard mom shouting the lil' one's name as he was nowhere to be found. And when I turned, he was on the other side of the road. Thank god no car went over him or any shitass crap like that. He was bleeding so much on his head. Mom kept pressing his head and I kept shouting his name to bring him to consciousness. Luckily a really kind hearted Indian couple on the other side of the traffic offered to give us a lift to the hospital. And another group of Chinese youngsters too. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

The disappointment and frustration struck when we reached Hospital A and the nurses asked us to go away as they don't have any brain specialist. I was like, come on la.. They even stopped dad who was carrying lil' one at the ER entrance and said, 'Tengok dulu, tengok dulu..' with one hand on the hip like we're talking about selling fish or chicken. Seriously heartless piece of cold meat. But dad kept asking them to help stop the bleeding first because lil' one was losing so much blood he was shivering like a fierce fish out of water. Fortunately, the same super nice souls actually waited and were more than willing to rush us to another hospital as Hospital A doesn't provide ambulance service.

From there, it was a long long night. ICU for one day. Thankfully, everything's all right now. He's recovering fast. Mom's eye is healing too. Our body aches are subsiding pretty swiftly with the usage of the counterpain like body lotion. Really, if we're not lucky, I don't know what luck is. And very heavily blessed too. I remembered I was completely conscious during the 'Flying Coaster ride', all I thought was 'Die lah.' and before the landing, 'God, please save us all. I beg you please.' The car's condition.. It's hopeless. A nurse who saw the car said that most probably the occupants were no go.

I couldn't thank enough to those who have helped directly and indirectly. May you be blessed in abundance in so many ways. I guess that's all I can say for now. Appreciate what you have and every moment spent. And, be safe on the road. Good day, dear amigos.

I think I like today, I think it's good.

Howdyyy. Gosh, it's been so long, hasn't it. Glad my lappy's back from the hospital after three whole weeks but I kinda got rusty. Typing like a tortoise. And new software. Good thing I backup-ed everything so I didn't have to redownload everything but still, I messed up stuffs. Oh well. Things like this, you'll never know when it'll strike you. It was fine all the while but suddenly that Sunday morning I wanted to use it but it refused to start. Numbers and codes were all I saw on the black screen for hours. Bummer. Guess me and tech gadgets can never be friends. :)

So two weeks ago, god uncle rang up and the next day at 6am, all of us were all packed and headed for Kuala Gandah, Pahang. We're seriously used to this already. The main attraction there was the elephants. It's opened free to the public and we got to feed, ride and bathe with the elephants. What a joy. But we didn't get ourselves wet though, for a very good reason; the elephant peed and pooped into the very same river you're splashing and soaking in. Besides that, we also went to the nearby Deer Park. Daymmm this was  the highlight I swear. I got to feed the deers and rabbits, cuddle a baby civet or musang and above all, carried a snake on my shoulders. I honestly didn't feel anything, I thought it was really cool. These experiences have made me realised that there are too many things out there that I've not explored and tried. Hope I'll have the chance to do as many crazy stuffs as I can before I get old and fragile and maybe senile. Haha.

The week before, another unexpected storm hit the family but thank god, this time was just a warning sign. You know, when family gets into trouble, the best support they could get is from family. I saw the tension and everything but I don't know. I guess I'm still too naive for the real deal. Sometimes people are funny, it looks like A to your eyes but hears like B and then the truth, C starts to surface from beneath, but there's another truth, D. In the end, nothing is resolved cause it goes nowhere. I used to shove aside matters that I dislike, unhappy subjects, arguments. Ignoring like it was just a bad play and wake up to a normal day. The scariest part is, it's not like I don't know anything, I knew everything. And in my dreams, I saw the beautiful side of it. Everything just plays in front of me and it all has a different ending. Some are just replays but some, they're remakes. Weird I know.

Alright it's getting late. Shall hit the sack and rock tomorrow's whatever I'm going for. Lol. Haha today I baked some raisin rolls and wholemeal loaf. Dad said I could open a bakery (flutters) but I will go bankrupt in no time looking at the amount of raisins I used. I ain't no business minded person. Never was. And my future bakery, I'll name it 'Family Bakery'. Tata :D.

The many beautiful creatures I met.

Awesomeness.

Do not let them die.

Ex-MGSians gathering.

Windmill & Neway. ♥

Block, Jump, Kick!

Last weekend, like always, twas a last minute plan. Thursday the idea popped up out of nowhere and Saturday morning, we were in the car uphill. Twas great, getting away from the heat of the city for a while. Family outings like this, although short, it brings a lot of enlightenment and joy. Twas all I needed. :)

Since I am so free, I thought I'll make some digital collages, instead of uploading the photos one by one. It saves time too I think, maybe not. Too many options kills me.

The few 'decent' snaps of us.

It's rare you can see such variety of flowers here. I'm glad I snapped them all.

Sadly, I can only name one. ROSES. :D

What else do you do in a cold place like that. Food! ;)

The guy I met at the tea plantation, signboards, somebody's giant antic shoes, peace sign coated with glove, lonely leaf flowing down the waterfall stream, beautiful lamp, 'ichigo', a kid playing in the super cold water, naked!

Feel like I'm in a Bollywood scene :D.

Peace, love and understanding y'll. 

It's a dark night on the west coast

Then a soft breeze as the sun rose

Then the phone rang like a gunshot

Like a siren on the beach rock

Sirens - Angels & Airwaves

Violet

I don't know her, but I love her. 

101th birthday. :).

Certain things stay the same without you asking.

Everybody's wish.

Light up, light up

There's a graduate in the house :). We had a celebration last Sunday to celebrate his graduation and birthday. Twas great. We had too much food though. 

My turn is still a long long way to go. Just thinking, what if the day I graduate my heart tells me that this isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life. It's crazy. But, I'm actually prepared for that if it really happens. This is what happens when you don't know exactly what you're passionate about. It's okay though cause I'll always try to give my best in all I do and I believe it will do good. 

Certain things look cold on the outside, but when you start to see what's inside you can actually feel the warmth it possesses. Gradually, you get comfortable and sink deeper into it because you like that weird feeling without realising it. For some, it becomes an obsession. One day without it, you'll go haywire. That's when you know it's bad for you and you need to get rid of it. However, the bad news is it's never easy to shove aside something you really like and are dependent on for so long. I miss my pillow and bolster so much. Haha. 

I believe that everybody is gifted and talented in their own ways. You may not see it but others do. I realise things people don't for some reason. I can't give good advices but I can share my own experiences. I'm not very good at articulating my thoughts but I can put myself in your shoes and feel what you mean. I won't judge and I won't be like what most people would. But I'm not god, I can't always be there for you. For all you know, I might be the wrong one. 

I'm thankful for the promise he made me make. Buenas noches, amigos. :).

Always loving the sky.

Fifteen merry days

Been not blogging recently because I don't know, laziness, paranoia, etc.

CNY this year was great. Lots of good food and awesome companies. Celebrated grandpa's 75th birthday on the ninth day of new year, Fong's farewell on the fifth and enjoyed the brightly-lit Dong Zen Temple on the fifteenth. I wanna go visit Fong there some day and on the way, visit some other friends, like a field trip, it'll be so much fun. 

This year was obviously different, like someone was missing. But the good thing was, everyone did their part in making it all looked the same, intentionally or not. And as life always is, when something goes, something else will come to fill in the void. And it takes time and most importantly, optimism to adapt to those changes. Well, nothing changed really. Only thing is you cherish each other's presence more.

:)