YOU!

I am cold, cocky, unfriendly and everything you wouldn't want in a friend when you first see me in standard three. I don't easily trust people hence, I only mix with the same gang of friends whom I've known for years and comfortable with. I can forgive people but it's hard for me to forget the hurtful stuffs that they do to me. I am actually quite a sensitive person. Sometimes, I take criticism very personally and that is only because it is from someone I've known for so long and more importantly, trust. Yes, I'm very loyal in friendships. Don't you dare hurt my friends because I will get you if you do and I will make sure you regret it for the rest of your life. I am always the peacemaker and that's because I hate seeing my friends break apart. What else, I swear. I practically swear the moment I wake up, shower, have my breakfast, go to school, etc. but that's just in my heart. Only when I get really annoyed that I let it slip out of my mouth. And I have a brother, oh don't get me started about him. He can be the silliest person on earth who does everything I ask but he is also the nicest brother I could ever wished for. And of course, I'm the nicest, awesomest sister that sometimes I think he might not even deserve.

When you start to know me, you might see me as a cheerful, optimistic girl who's really strong and unbreakable inside. But guess what, I am so fragile the slightest thing can make me lose all hope in the world. I appear happy most of the time because I don't want people to know my weaknesses and step on me. I can also be 'quite' bossy and overly in-charged over things at times in the sense I want things my way and only my way. As most of my friends already knew, I will own a mansion next time and the first thing that I will do is assign my out-of-jail-mum as my Head of Maids and her six twins under her. I have big ambitions, big dreams but all that would be meaningless without my dear friends to share it with me. If I die, I'll die a monkey king/president/prime minister/king/Rajah, not just some worthless door-step son who's unlucky enough to be picked up by a nun who has never breastfed me or any of my siblings.


Despite all the flaws, my friends think I'm awesome and one of them easily agreed to type up a blog post specially for me to tell the world how awesome I am. How awesome am I right? No word can ever describe my awesomeness. I am beyond awesome. Seriously, I'm not being proud but awesome is too 'low' for me. I suit words like "Mahagundeawesomegilababibetulbetulawesome". Okay, the point is, I AM AWESOME. :D

This blog post is (obviously) about Rachel Saw a.k.a. Rajah. *POOI*
Thousands of apologies for any inaccuracy and offensive remark. Patik hanyalah hamba yang menurut perintah tuanku yang kurang munasabah. Hee. Tata.

I feel blessed

I think I'm missing those two fellas already :).

God, I'm smiling. I'm smiling that life has been simple yet so full of contentment in it's sheer simplicity. I could really live a life like this for the rest of my life, only a place far from the city's clouds. I think I know what I want to do but there are certain things that I need to prepare myself with in case the plan backfires and I would need to take on extra roles. Yeah, superwoman.

THE day is nearing, I don't feel the excitement at all. It's actually kind of dreadful. I only wish that that day could be like every other day, me doing normal stuffs, drinking and eating normal every day food, talking about normal stuffs, sms at a normal rate, dress up in normal house clothes. Yea, stuffs like that. I hate it when you intentionally plan up special stuffs on special occasions and things end up the other way round and for the rest of the coming few years, you'll be reminded of it on that supposedly-special day. Justsaying.

Anyways, it's my brother's birthday too and it's Christmas's eve! :D. I'm very excited for Christmas and the New Year's Eve. This year we'll be counting down in Johore and the new year will be a double celebration. Awesome day to have your wedding no? ♥. 

Happy Bola-bola festival. I just put on 1.5kg having dinner in grand's place. Seriously heaven. 

I love you

I love you so much

I feel like ripping out your heart

And keep it in my pocket close to mine

So random :P

Love Letters

Just watched A Walk to Remember. It was BEAUTIFUL. I wanted to watch it like since dunno-when when everybody was talking about it in school. Kept tearing towards the end. I mean who wouldn't. Movies like this, must watch with guys. It's cool if they cry :).

Holiday. Holiday. Holiday. The aroma of freshly baked scones, the cow-dung-ish smell of freshly cut grass, the smooth sea breeze caressing across your delicate skin, the almost-annoying birds chirping away at 7am, the quiet mornings where you can hear yourself scream "Hello Sunshine!" as you get up from the bed, the happy feeling as you hop your way into the kitchen before washing up. This is how it feels and it's amazing. :D

So far, I washed the curtains and sofa covers as mum reminded before she left, I made marshmallow which didn't turn out right and chocolate-coated Marie biscuits, just so I can lick my heavily stained chocolate-coated fingers like a jolly girl. This year, I'm gonna do something big. Like really BIG.

I.

AM.

GONNA.

BAKE.

MY.

OWN.

BIRTHDAY.

CAKE!

Serious. I've chosen the recipe. I've got the ingredients. Only thing left is the guts to make it. LMAO. This is worse than taking my driving test, I swear. I hope it's good. Or else, it will be my brother's birthday cake then. Haha. Dinner at grand's place tonight. Moo-cha-chas. Good day. =)