My pants kept dropping today

Hi. Today was a crazy day, bio and english quiz and moral mid-term. Whoever said moral was easy, I guess it's an entirely different story here in this place beside the 'pond'. We had to write essays, explain concepts and apply one theory to answer a case study. Where did all the MCQ questions went?? Down the pond. Just amazing. Haha when I walked out the room, Wei Wen was like, "...worst than bio, read also cannot answer..." That coming from HER. And the guy sitting beside me was the first to hand in the paper. When the lecturer said start, he attacked the paper with ink without mercy. He definitely knew what he was doing. That, was moral.

English was fun. Twas like studying for the family history of every soul in a town. We memorised names and the  questions was like "Eva's husband, the postmaster, the person who runs a coal business, the name called after Steven Adams, the owner of the grocery, the boy who drew for himself and his mom, etc. and of course, university-level-questions" Bio, what more can I say, like that lah. Well, I'm really not complaining or anything. It's just, my habit to reflect on things that happened in a day before I go to bed.

Okay I forgot everything else that I wanted to blog about. Owh this week's english assignment is to search for a song with the theme based on The Lottery and then presentation this Thursday. Anddd, I've chosen Your Love Is A Lie by Simple Plan :). Nostalgic, for some reason. Childhood song lol.

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut

Sending SOS from this tiny box

And I lost all signals when I lifted off

Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down, cause I'm tired of drifting round and round

I might just end up as a chef.

Loafer

The past two days, I've been eating, slacking and sleeping a lot. Just don't feel like doing anything, or perhaps I can't. Friday, came back from dinner, wanted to read moral but I slept off before 9pm I think, till the next morning. Saturday, I was walking around the house the whole day, searching and looking through stuffs at every corner of the house and at night, slept off when I was just about to read something. Today, after lunch, slept till six something. Something is seriously not right, I know. Maybe it's just the month, the weather, the horoscope, the feng shui or just hormones. *pulls hair* Need chocolates, lots and lots of it.

Haha this evening, I phoned Ms. Bendy and we talked like quite long I think. It's seriously was like two aunties in their late 50s, talking about their lives and life in general. I have beer belly, like seriously. I don't drink that much okay, it's 'hardly', I dislike drinking, I don't drink for no reason, it's like pouring fuel and lighting it up in your system. But sometimes, you know, sometimes, circumstances make people change, even for a split second. And driving, seriously can make me go nuts. This week is gonna be hectic again with quizzes and all. All the best all who's facing their finals soon. Take care of your health no matter what. Aight, gonna pack and brush and sleep. Hopefully a smooth-sail through dreamland tonight. Happy day.

I'm a sensitive. 

Hearing Voices

The past one week, a lot had happened. Tears, shove offs, harsh text messages, apologises. All that had above all the pain, brought us closer together with deeper understanding of each other. I shouldn't have done that to her. Wanting to isolate myself. What was I thinking. But, this is the beauty of family. No matter how rotten up you are, they will take you in with the warmest hug, anytime. Because it is true, unconditional love. Her apologising, was the most unexpected and significant thing that she had ever done, which makes me respect her even more at a whole new sky-high level.

I learn not to keep things inside myself. If you have some things to sort out, do it right away. If the person on the other end really matters to you, all the more reason for you to do it. It's stupid to assume and just wait for miracles to happen. You want something, you go get it. No one's gonna do it for you, unless you lack an arm and a leg and what you wish for is only a piece of cheeseburger. Dream on, and your dreams will come crashing down on you when you realise that thing you're hoping for is gone, for-e-ver. I'm doing just this, bit by bit. I know I might not have it but at least, I tried, even though I might screw up for the hundredth time. The only thing that's holding me back is the fear that I would lose it even more. That's old fashion thinking. I seriously do not want to wake up in the middle of the night, thinking furiously about it anymore. Really. 

She told me, always be happy and do not let anyone take that away from you. What's most important is you're satisfied. Don't bother about what other people think about you. You know the truth. That is all that matters. 

Muffins, cupcakes, whatever you call it, I made for the ETP. 

Six hours of sweat, blood and smiles(seriously, there's blood).

Smile till the end :)

"I know what love is. When you find the person you are supposed to love, bells ring and fireworks go off in your head and you can't find words to speak and you think about her all the time. When you find the person you are supposed to love, you will know by staring deeply into her eyes."

-Jacob-

House Rules, Jodi Picoult